Wednesday, September 18, 2013
I just don't know what else to do. I don't know how to lose the weight any more. I try and eat less and workout, I stay the same weight. Then I get upset and I eat non-stop. I'm tired of feeling like this. I don't have the money to get a trainer or go to the gym. I have a treadmill and elliptical at home. I try and use them. I also go out and walk/jog. I don't eat crap any more. I haven't had fast food (other than pizza) for 260 days. Same with pop.
None of my friends in real life are trying to lose weight (at least they haven't said anything to me). I don't have anyone that I can turn to. I tried to use sparkpeople.com groups, but people never seem to write in them. It's hard to find help.
I have lost a little over 50 pounds. That's great. I need to do more. I started at 340 and I'm now around 285, 283 on a good day. Today is not a good day. I don't understand why I can't get there. I don't really have a goal in mind about how low I want to go. I want to be atleast 100 pounds less, around 240. But I have always been overweight as an adult. So I don't know what size I can really be. I was also overweight as a kid.
Side note, we had a free lunch yesterday. They had pop sitting out for us to drink. I thought I got water. However, it was sprite. I took a drink and then spit it out. Then I threw the cup away. I don't want to drink pop any more. I was proud of myself for that.
I'm lost and I don't know whatelse to do.