What I hope to gain by Sparking
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
I want to lose weight for sure,
but I have to be honest and get real with myself. The weight is symptomatic, the problems that caused me to stop caring about myself and let myself go has to be fixed. What are my real issues, the ones I have tried to eat away with every feel good food there was? Why did I try to drown my sorrows? Why do I hold everything in? Why am I so afraid? What is my real problem?
If I donít address that, then will I be thin but yet still unhappy? I have been so closed up, for so long that I donít know how to open up and be vulnerable again? I have successfully isolated myself away, and no one bothers me. I do not mean to be a Debbie Downer, but I am trying to be an overall healthier individual, body, soul and spirit,
so sparkers bear with me, if my blogs seem right now to be a bit depressing, I am a work in progress. I want to be more open and I am hoping that blogging will help me to be more so as this is a very supportive community
. As the weight comes off, I want everything else in my life that has been holding me bound and captive to come off as well. I find strength and motivation daily from the blogs I read.
I look at the before and after pictures and yes I notice the weight lost, but I especially notice the smile
, and the light
in the eyes, that has more to do with weight. I think this journey becomes more about us, than weight, at least which is what I hope for myself and everyone here as well.