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What I hope to gain by Sparking

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

I want to lose weight for sure, emoticon but I have to be honest and get real with myself. The weight is symptomatic, the problems that caused me to stop caring about myself and let myself go has to be fixed. What are my real issues, the ones I have tried to eat away with every feel good food there was? Why did I try to drown my sorrows? Why do I hold everything in? Why am I so afraid? What is my real problem? emoticon If I donít address that, then will I be thin but yet still unhappy? I have been so closed up, for so long that I donít know how to open up and be vulnerable again? I have successfully isolated myself away, and no one bothers me. I do not mean to be a Debbie Downer, but I am trying to be an overall healthier individual, body, soul and spirit, emoticon so sparkers bear with me, if my blogs seem right now to be a bit depressing, I am a work in progress. I want to be more open and I am hoping that blogging will help me to be more so as this is a very supportive community emoticon . As the weight comes off, I want everything else in my life that has been holding me bound and captive to come off as well. I find strength and motivation daily from the blogs I read. emoticon I look at the before and after pictures and yes I notice the weight lost, but I especially notice the smile emoticon , and the light emoticon in the eyes, that has more to do with weight. I think this journey becomes more about us, than weight, at least which is what I hope for myself and everyone here as well.


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DALMOM2007 9/20/2013 7:03PM

    Great blog....its like you're in my head describing me. Like you, I'm learning to open up again. It is definitely a learning process and with the support here, I'm sure that we will succeed in achieving our goals and learning more about ourselves. emoticon Looking forward to the journey.

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CLPURNELL 9/19/2013 4:31PM

    You are definitely on the right track addressing the inner problems will definitely make this journey easier. Spark is a great place to do it. Remember you have he power to change your life into what you want it to be!

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WORKNPROGRESS49 9/18/2013 12:54PM

    emoticon

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BIGPAWSUP 9/18/2013 9:34AM

    Fantastic blog. And oh so true!

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D_4RECOVERY 9/18/2013 8:34AM

    Great blog. Addressing all those issues and making peace with them is exactly the journey I am on and many others here at spark. Our blogs are to do just that and you have done it so eloquently here. When we find out what got us here and then find ways to deal with it, only then can we be truly free of this disease. Loving your blogs because they get me thinking. Thanks so much for inspiring and motivating. Have a good day.

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SLEEPERELLA 9/18/2013 7:18AM

    Hi Beautiful! Yes this is more about finding ourselves than a weight loss journey. It is about accepting our past and making changes for our own good! The weight loss is just a bonus that comes along with these new healthy habits we are putting in place. Good luck on your journey! Be blessed! emoticon

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LIVELYGIRL2 9/18/2013 1:13AM

  Yes, there is alot more to us than our bods, of why people don't take bette care of themselves. I don't think you have to figure it all out at once, but these are good questions. emoticon

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