Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Ok late but it's a start...
the challenge is to post answers to the following questions.:
I have been on spark for a few years (3) and squandered away quite a bit of time just trying to navigate around. I did manage to create quite a recipe collection that I used from time to time. I never joined any teams, I hated the spark wheel. I had no idea what to do with it or the points. I didn't visit my spark page. I was afraid of public pages. Afraid of people gathering information about me. Afraid that making commitments to would take too much time and when I failed everyone would know.
I know people that joined other calorie counting/fitness tracking sites but I just couldn't get myself to let go of Spark and all the time I had invested in it already. I made the decision to stay. I waited for my kids to be more independent. I needed to know that I had completely followed through with my parenting responsibilities before I put myself first. I know that sounds silly and most certainly my children would never have asked that of me. I just did it.
This time, with my kids grown into beautiful responsible people I decided to look at myself, my life and do what I know I can do and what I deserve to do for myself.
I signed up for the SparkCoach. One of the tasks was to visit my own spark page and put something on it. So I did. Another was to join a team. So I did. Another was to post on someone Else's blog so I did.
I was afraid, privacy issues and all that... I was also very quickly amazed at the show of support and camaraderie here. So I joined another team and another. I add people as friends. I give and receive support to people I don't know - yet! I am a part of a community and I am having fun!
I haven't shared my weight loss hopes and goals with many of the people in my (face to face) circle of influence (some people call these friends) because I can honestly say I don't know if I will get much support or if I really want support from them... I kind of want this to be my own personal journey. Maybe it's insecurity in myself? WHEN I get it this time I want to take all the credit. Does that make sense?
SparkCoach has encouraged me to get on board, the teams have instilled a sense of confidence and camaraderie that I am happy to have found.
Sometimes I get a little overwhelmed with all the emails and posting and responding. But that is me. I don't have a large friend base just for that reason. I feel so responsible to keep everyone happy and connected that in the end it is me that looses. I don't know how some people do it with work, groups, meetings, family. It amazes me. I envy those people.
I think it will be the teams and groups that keep me interested and on track but I have to be careful to not over commit or I just give up. And SparkCoach is a wonderful tool that is keeping me accountable.
Now that I can give spark goodies and now that I have won a few 20 pointers, I know it isn't fixed. I love the wheel.
I like the feel of the 55+ women team. I think this 10 pounds by Christmas is good for me. I want to make it but if I don't, well at least I will be another 105 days into my 'lifestyle' journey. This time I am not looking for a quick fix. I am looking for long term change. What I really see on Spark is that it is the people that have been here for a long time that have nurtured the friendships, that have committed to the whole life change and the journey. They set the example of the type of person I want to be.