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I need to get on the ball...

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Ugh, I have been slacking.

Yesterday I pretty much got sick on everything I ate EXCEPT (now get this) Oreo cookies. I are 2 of them, and they didn't make me sick. WTH?

Anyway, I have been working like a crazy person without days off. When I work like this, I don't have a lot of time to do much of anything, and that included cooking. I have been relying more on processed crap than I should (whoo hoo for Healthy Choice, Lean Cuisine, and Subway) I haven't been to PC Fit yet this week, but will be attending Wednesday's 5:30 am class. I have my gym bag packed and will get ready before I leave for work.

This weekend... ugh. I didn't really eat a lot. That wasn't the issue. I took a break from tracking (which I NEVER do) and it just threw me all out of whack. The problem I found when I didn't plan is I didn't really eat. I don't know what got into me either.

Then... ugh, and I might as well come clean... I snuck behind the shop with the Shop Foreman and... shared a cigarette with him. I haven't smoked in a long long time, and I don't know what got into me, but I shared with him. Honestly, I really haven't had the urge to do it again, but I can't explain it. At all.... It was like a one time thing I guess?

Anyway, I need to put all that $hit behind me and get back to the getting here. I guess we all "stray" at some point, and maybe that is what I needed to help me refocus on what is important. I know the second PC Fit starts, I am going to remember why I do what I do. The rush, the high I get from that is better than any other high I have experienced in my life, and I have a lot of experience being high in various forms. So when I get back to that, it will all be put in check.

My weight is actually the lowest it has even been since I was in a single digit age bracket. It is really strange.

Anyway, I need to get back to the whole foods thing. I am working on it, but right now with working... ugh. I just need to plan better. I have Thursday off, so I need to actually sit down and take the time to plan some more.

Yeah, so that is where I am
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TEREMC 9/18/2013 11:01AM

    Cattutt, you will eventually feel the high it is a different more subtle high then some others but once you and your body get used to it you will start craving it. emoticon

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PATTYR81 9/18/2013 10:39AM

    I've found that I do the same kinds of things when I get too tired/stressed/overworked. I think 'I'll just take a little break from **insert healthy practice**', then I go to a past comfort behavior thinking it will make me feel better. And of course, I feel WORSE! HELLO????

That was then, this is now and it's a new day, new start, new plan.

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Happy Day!
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BARCLE 9/18/2013 1:48AM

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DREAMMIIND22 9/17/2013 11:44PM

    Stay Strong! What happened is the past, put it all behind you and get back on board! I know you can do it! emoticon emoticon

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LOVINGAFRICA 9/17/2013 11:33PM

    I know you will be able to figure it out. Perhaps you were really tired and felt that you needed a break, or a break away and had a cigarette.
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Sharing one has less nicotine than you would get from eating a meal in a restaurant in Europe with all the second hand smoke. If you took a real holiday. So don't sweat it!
Enjoy that class, this is a new day.

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BRADMILL2922 9/17/2013 11:24PM

    Yep, put all that stuff behind you and move forward! Good luck with your planning and getting back on track! Hopefully you can feel better without Oreos!

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COCK-ROBIN 9/17/2013 10:09PM

    Go for it. You can do it!

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CATTUTT 9/17/2013 9:51PM

    I fantasize about having another cigarette. I know that if I did, it would all be over for me and I'd be smoking 2 packs a day again. So even thought smoking with someone is not something to be proud of, exactly... be glad you didn't rush out and buy a carton!

I REALLY wish I could get that high from exercise that people talk about. Sounds like it's going to be a great way for you to start your morning!

Good luck getting through tomorrow and making it to your day off!

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