Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Feeling like a horrible person at the moment because of what set me off and will be discussing this at my PTSD session with my counselor tomorrow.
I know I am not the only person on this earth that has lost everything to a flood, fire, tornado, earthquake, etc. I am really in a deep black mood since the news came out that the rebuilt boardwalk in Seaside, NJ that I am sure most of you on the East Coast has seen on the news.
Yes, it is devastating that this happened. Here is where the terrible person part comes in. The 1st words out of my mouth was, "They better fix my house before they rebuild that boardwalk for the 2nd time."
I am sorry but it is almost a year after Sandy and there are about 300,000 homeowners that are still waiting to rebuild our homes. We are still waiting for FEMA ratified elevation levels (hopefully due by the beginning of October) and of course the funds/grants to do so. I WANT TO HAVE CLOSURE! I want my house rebuilt so I can go back home. I am not asking too much I don't think.
So far all of the funds have gone to rebuild the boardwalks on the Jersey Shore so the businessmen could have their livelihoods back and get the economy going back at the Shore. Ok so the Governor did that so now it is our turn. The rebuilding of the Boardwalk will have to wait, the Tourist Season is over anyway.
Governor Christie would not allow FEMA to send in housing trailers for us to live in till our homes were repaired as they sent in to New Orleans. So they better concentrate on us homeowners and fix our houses so we can get our livelihoods back. I maybe selfish in my thinking but I want my house back NOW and not after they spend millions to rebuild the boardwalk and businesses a 2nd time. It is our turn now!
My anger at this is really consuming me at the moment and I am retreating back into my dark hole. But at least this time I recognize that I am doing this. I am at that "I don't care about anything attitude" and want to just hide inside and not have to deal with anything or anybody. I will leave my house and go to my session though but I would rather stay in bed and hide.
Kind of feel sorry for my counselor tomorrow, she has her work cut out for her.