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Life is Short...

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

I have let life pass me by, wasted so much precious time. I have let my weight hinder me in every way and it has taken not only from me, but from my family and I have guilt because of it. I lived all my teen years in an abusive household under the wrath of an evil step-father. To this day my mind plays tricks on me, it tells me I am ugly, I am bad, I will never be anything, never accomplish anything, not worth anything and for too long I have believed it. But I am starting to see something wonderful happening. With the support and advice from kind, beautiful people on here I am focusing more on the good that I know I am and trying harder to leave the past behind. I am learning that I am worthy and deserving, I just have a ways to go still. Please learn from me, don’t let life pass you by!
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  • PROUDNM1987
    Bless your heart!! You know that saying that has been around forever "Stick and stones will break my bones but words can never harm me!" Whoever came up with that bogus line is crazy! Words cut like a knife and can live inside a persons head forever!! I am glad to hear you are overcoming those mean hateful words!! You are doing fantastic and I am learning every day too how wonderful sparkpeople is and the great people on here do help boost our confidence! You keep up the good work!! emoticon emoticon
    1639 days ago
    You are a inspiration! Dealing with that at a young age sticks around I know. Been there done that.

    Keep up the good work and much success on your journey!

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    1640 days ago
    You are a wonderful, amazing, beautiful person! Don't let anyone, including yourself, telling you anything different. I suffer from the same problem so i know what you are going through. It isn't easy and I will never tell you it is but you are stronger than the doubts in your head and the words and actions of your step-father!

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    1642 days ago

    You are a wonderful work in progress! That is so awesome and I am thrilled for you.

    Love, Ginger
    1642 days ago
  • NHES220
    You are doing so great, don't let the past haunt you. You have a great husband and 2 great kids and so many more years to embrace and enjoy life. I know I am echoing what others have said here. Look what you have done so far - you are a quarter of the way to your goal and that is something you have accomplished. Don't let anyone sabotage that - especially the thoughts in your head, the things from the past. You are good and smart and so worth the effort and that is what you should see when you look in the mirror and that is what you need to tell yourself. People like your step-father need to beat other people down so they can feel more important or because that is how they were treated and that is all they know. You know better! What Maya Angelou says, when you know better, you do better.
    1642 days ago
  • KIM22211
    life is what we make it and you are living a dream now! Dont look back. Not worth it! Don't allow the enemy to bring you down! You are a child of the King! We don't have to accept trash talk. When you are getting attacked by the enemy, because that is what it is, just know that that means you are obviously doing the right thing and he is getting scared and lashing out to try to steal your joy! Not happening! not today! Command the enemy away and God's word says he HAS to depart from you. Doesn't mean that he won't come back but is does mean at that exact moment he has to leave!!! You are in charge!!! Thanks for always being there for me!! You just don't know what help you have been!
    1642 days ago
    all the best in leaving the past behind
    1642 days ago
    My dear friend, life has not passed you by, it is here today! You are doing your best, you are learning from past mistakes. You are no longer the product of such cruel, and hateful words. You are a fabulous wife, and a loving mother. You are successful, hardworking, and you are making choices for health.
    Blessings, and more blessings upon you!
    You have overcome, and your words are going to speak truth to someone who needs to hear it!
    1642 days ago
    I'm glad you are coming into your own my friend. You deserve the very best that life has to offer!!! Keep your head held high and have faith in those that surround you with love and encouragement. We will always be here for you... emoticon

    1642 days ago
    You have an enemy who comes to steal, kill and destroy whatever he can in your life and his ultimate plan is to destroy you. But Jesus said He came to give you life and that more abundantly. When you hear that negative voice that condemns and tells you that you are no good, not worthy, ugly, etc., learn to take those thoughts captive and replace them with the truth of God's word about yourself. You are worthy because Jesus died that you could be the righteousness of God in Him. You are loved because God loved you even while you were still a sinner enough to give His Son to die for you. He created you in His very own likeness and image. You are a picture of the God who lives within you. There is none like you because there are no carbon copies in God's creation; each person is a unique masterpiece. You are fearfully and wonderfully made because He knit you together in your mother's womb.

    All of those negatives are developed in the dark, but God is the God of the light. Bring those negative thoughts out into the light of the truth of God's word and let him expose them and dispel them. Continue to seek Him, pray and spend time in His presence and His word and speak out loud the positive promises of God for your life and soon you will begin to see a difference in how you see yourself and the negative self-talk will be replaced with God's promises.

    1642 days ago
    I've been guilty of this myself. When I reached 40 my life seemed to start falling into place, until then it was a struggle. Just take it one day at a time. Enjoy everything to it's fullest.
    1642 days ago
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