Tuesday, September 17, 2013
I think the problem is I'm tired of seeing my in-laws. They have been coming over a lot the last 2-3 months, near daily, and I have reached my breaking point.
"I will see you on Thanksgiving Day, goodbye"
This will give me some time to emotionally recharge. I'm tired of the stupid redecorating with furniture and curtains and bedspreads. I'm tired of the landscaping and the dirt and shrubs. I'm on vacation from that until November or maybe 2014.
Only thing I care about right now is finishing my program. I have this habit of doing great until the last few pounds and then I go right back. And it's always stress related. I don't NEED to do yard work right now. I don't flipping care what my shrubs look like. I couldn't care any less about the curtains either. They block the light so I can sleep and that makes me glad.
Work is stressing me out. I got projects and deadlines. I got my needy husband. I got my emotional eating and exercise to sort through. I don't need to babysit more people.
My parents are getting on thin ice as well because now I'm not good enough because I don't have kids. I am not some oven that needs to be constantly producing. I don't even want kids! It's this type of family $hit that got me drinking my problems away in the first place. Gah. Frustrating as hell.
98 days left.