Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Well, this has been an interesting year. A year ago I decided to take charge of my health and my career. I wanted to leave working in the city but my recruiter talked me into taking a certain position. I thought I found a job that had a good work-life balance, interesting work and a good support team. The first 5 months were just that (except work life balance). Then the true side of the company came to light. (Let me just say the person before me didnít last 9 months). The anxiety increased, my resentment increased, my weight went up and I dreaded walking into the building every day.
It all came to a head for me in July when I decided I deserved better. I went back to my old mentors at my old companies who reminded me how good I was and that the area of work I was in wasnít what I should be doing as my strengths were in a different area. I was reminded I deserved to be treated better than I was (seemed I got praise emails from everyone but my department for what I was doing) and no longer would be scapegoat on projects that I wasnít even involved on (told to me by others). As I planned to leave, I decided to pay attention to ME. I walked more (up to 8 miles some days). I ate better. I stopped listening to the negativity and just did my job, helped others when needed and no longer tried to Ďfixí something that wouldnít be fixed. I went back to a few old bosses of mine and they reminded me of my strengths (and offered asked if I would like to return, but itís in the city). They reminded me that I WAS one of their best employees while I was there and reminded me of my strengths and helped me figure out how I should change directions and go back to what I enjoyed doing (and did well), but make sure my wants and needs were met.
I updated my resume, sent it out and luckily, in the world of tax, there are positions available where I am. I had no shortage. I finally decided to make sure I had a recruiter who looked out for MY best interests and not talk me into a position I didnít want. He even told me certain jobs that I might be interested from what I read online wouldnít be good and provided a list of reasons (which when speaking to others in the field were right). I found the job that I think will truly make me happy over time because I decided to be honest and not settle for what I wanted.
Iím now at my original goal weight I set for myself. I lost muscle tone so technically although Iím there number-wise, Iím not there health wise since Iím only a month out of a broken wrist and wasnít really focusing on weight training early on. I updated my goal to lose more fat while walking, knowing I can work on building muscle when I get the OK from my dr. Iím organizing my apartment. Iím seeing friends. Iím taking care of myself. My new job starts in two weeks and I already feel like Iím on the path to recovery. Who knows? I may even get in BETTER shape now and change my goals even more (no worries Ė going to keep healthy goals!)