Monday, September 16, 2013
having a conversation with myself.
I am trying, do not discount my effort, is only perfection acceptable.
is every small thing not enough. never being good enough, so everything I attempt to do will be measured by not being good enough, you will fail or you just do not try hard enough.
you just do not try hard enough is a saying I am all to familiar with.
I am angry with the voice that is never pleased
words do not come out straight when you are angry.
I have been told I do not try hard enough all my life so I guess I have internalized this hateful message.
and anything less than perfect is failure. I unfortunately I believe anything less than perfection is failure
I am not angry I am just getting a thought out of my head and onto paper (blog is this case)