Last night I was getting a little down because these past two weekends I've just been like whatever on what I'm eating. I found myself not caring again and not wanting to continue with weight loss or becoming more healthy.
I'm really not sure how to explain why I've been stuck, I haven't hit a plateau because I can loose more weight and have but then a circle back around and gain it back very quickly. I've been 180 for almost 2 years now! Which is good and bad. bad because I lost my desire to get better but good because I've maintained for 2 years!! I haven't gone back to how I used to eat in the past. I used to eat a lot all the time, now I can't eat three chili cheese dogs, a whole pizza, a quart of ice cream.
But I've reached a place where I can't seem to loose any more weight if I'm not super stricked on my eating. You know what is that true? I've asked the Sparkcoaches twice but they haven't given me a clear answer. How do the healthy and fit eat? I think I need to look at them and do some research. This point in my life is for me to research, make mistakes, and learn how to teach others.
In fact I'm going back to school for my Christian counseling degree. I don't have to know it all! I just have to keep on learning!! (Sorry guys I'm having an awesome revelation right now!!)
I would beat myself up because I felt like I should know how to do this, I should be skinny and be helping others right now. How can I help others if I can't help myself. I can't help myself because I was looking for others to feed me (if that makes sense) I haven't been looking for my own answers.
What I've been doing is trying to loose weight while still trying to live the way I used to but only occasionally. (I've discovered cheat meals or cheat (splurge) days don't work for me, all it does is negate the progress I made previously.
It was a head knowledge thing and not a heart knowledge.
I'll have to blog more on this later, I'm still confused on what my next step is in weight loss and a healthy life. Any suggestions or hints would be awesome!!
Imagine talking to your future self. They are thin and healthy, what do they say to give you the motivation you need for today.
"Today can either help or hinder you"
Well that's it for today!