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Day one - starting over

Monday, September 16, 2013

Good Morning Sparkpeople! Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I just need to get healthy so I can stay around for a while. I just made my first breakfast for my first "re-launch" day.

I've been tired and run down and feeling so bogged down with life in general. I've been letting negativity and fear get the best of my emotions and with that comes comfort and convenience eating. I've been letting the opinions of others impact my opinion of myself and that's never a good thing. I've allowed all of these things to mess with my mind and with my program.

It has to stop! I have to put myself first and pay attention to the things I put in my mouth. I have to start journaling when I let someone else make me feel bad about myself instead of feeding the pain. Potato chips, M&Ms, ice cream, pizza, pastries .... all detrimental to my mental stability not to mention my waistline. I eat a huge chocolate muffin and I love the taste but then I hate that I ate it. I know while I'm consuming this muffin that I shouldn't be doing it or at least I shouldn't eat all of it but I do it anyway. I eat something bad for me and then I am upset with myself for doing it. It's some form of self imposed self flagellation and it's tiresome. I'm so over myself!

Today is day one - starting over. For breakfast I am having hot lemon water and oatmeal with fresh strawberries and blueberries sprinkled with cinnamon, stevia and chia seeds. For lunch I have grilled chicken breast that I will slice over a nice salad with romaine, spinach, cucumber, red, yellow and green peppers, radishes, carrots and purple cabbage with a squeeze of fresh lemon juice and tossed in a tbsp each of balsamic vinegar and olive oil. For the drive home I will have a protein shake. For dinner a grilled butterfly chop with a cup of pasta covered in a quarter cup of home-made marinara sauce and a slice of whole grain bread toasted and spread with garlic jelly. Snack choices for the day - apples, oranges, plum, almonds, dried berries. I can do this, I've done it before and succeeded I just have to get out of my own way.
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    Oh now! I have to try this! I always learn something from you. Thanks matey. I'll dabble at the weekend after buying a few bulbs...
    1631 days ago
  • MARY1964
    I know Snowmaiden it was a new discovery for me too. I found it at a local farmers market and I use it a lot. It can be put in sauces etc when cooking and you don't need the real garlic cloves and I like it spread on warm toast, just a little bit of it goes a long way. They basically take garlic cloves and cook them in vinegar with sugar and pectin. Now that I'm trying to cut out refined sugars I won't be using it but it's nice and garlicy and it doesn't taste too sweet.
    1631 days ago
    Oh Mary - it's always the negative that we take to heart huh? - yet the good stuff passes us by. Love your blogs and how you never give up.
    I did stumble though and thought you had grilled butterfly for dinner! What's the garlic jelly? I know you have jelly and we have jam but I've not heard of this...
    1632 days ago
    Yay! You've identified the problem areas and now you can avoid them. You know what to only have to actually do it! (I know that is hard.) Do the best you can. You WILL succeed at this if you keep trying. Best to you, Mary, and it's nice to hear from you again.

    DeAnne, Missourians Team
    1645 days ago
    Thank you so much Mary this is the same way that I have been feeling and i'm wishing you all the best and please let me know how it's going for you, and I hope soon to be back on there with you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1647 days ago
    Good for you for taking this awesome step towards a healthier you! You can do it!!

    I know what you're saying about comfort eating---also convenience eating. (For me it was easier to stop at McDonald's on the way home from work than to arrive home and them make a salad.) And comfort eating....don't get me started.

    I just read a book by Bob Harper (from The Biggest Loser) called The Skinny Rules. Basically 20 rules for eating. He talks about breaking that connection to salty and sweet foods that aren't good for us. It's not only in our "head", but the food themselves are addictive. (I just recently got off diet sodas for good. Not only are the cokes addictive, but they made me crave other sweet stuff.)

    Anyway good luck with your program! Wishing you much success emoticon
    1647 days ago
  • PERUSER918
    What a plan. It's great that you are putting yourself first. Don't forget to pamper yourself, too. Great job.
    1647 days ago
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