Monday, September 16, 2013
Good Morning Sparkpeople! Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I just need to get healthy so I can stay around for a while. I just made my first breakfast for my first "re-launch" day.
I've been tired and run down and feeling so bogged down with life in general. I've been letting negativity and fear get the best of my emotions and with that comes comfort and convenience eating. I've been letting the opinions of others impact my opinion of myself and that's never a good thing. I've allowed all of these things to mess with my mind and with my program.
It has to stop! I have to put myself first and pay attention to the things I put in my mouth. I have to start journaling when I let someone else make me feel bad about myself instead of feeding the pain. Potato chips, M&Ms, ice cream, pizza, pastries .... all detrimental to my mental stability not to mention my waistline. I eat a huge chocolate muffin and I love the taste but then I hate that I ate it. I know while I'm consuming this muffin that I shouldn't be doing it or at least I shouldn't eat all of it but I do it anyway. I eat something bad for me and then I am upset with myself for doing it. It's some form of self imposed self flagellation and it's tiresome. I'm so over myself!
Today is day one - starting over. For breakfast I am having hot lemon water and oatmeal with fresh strawberries and blueberries sprinkled with cinnamon, stevia and chia seeds. For lunch I have grilled chicken breast that I will slice over a nice salad with romaine, spinach, cucumber, red, yellow and green peppers, radishes, carrots and purple cabbage with a squeeze of fresh lemon juice and tossed in a tbsp each of balsamic vinegar and olive oil. For the drive home I will have a protein shake. For dinner a grilled butterfly chop with a cup of pasta covered in a quarter cup of home-made marinara sauce and a slice of whole grain bread toasted and spread with garlic jelly. Snack choices for the day - apples, oranges, plum, almonds, dried berries. I can do this, I've done it before and succeeded I just have to get out of my own way.