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Food Prison

Monday, September 16, 2013

I was doing some grocery shopping tonight and was walking through the frozen food section. Blue Bunny Peanut Butter Panic ice cream used to be my favorite. For a split second, I thought, "You can have some ice cream, it won't hurt just this once." That voice in my head lies because I know that if I bought that carton, it wouldn't be just once.

Then I spied some things that Old Christina would have loved. My first thought was "that stuff is gross, I don't eat that stuff." Good, right? But my very next thought was "Remember when you were free to eat all that stuff?"

Fortunately, it only took about a second to realize that when I ate that crap, I wasn't free AT ALL. I was a prisoner to food cravings. I was a prisoner to emotional eating. My size held me hostage and kept me from shopping in stores I liked. I didn't feel free to participate in many activities because I was so out of shape, or because I was afraid I would be the only fat person there.

FREEDOM is the pavement under my feet and the breeze in my hair when I'm running.
FREEDOM is the lack of fear in my life.
FREEDOM is the ability to say NO to food that doesn't make me healthier and stronger.

I spent enough time in Food Prison. I paid my debts and I am DONE.

I am free.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
IXCHEL23 9/17/2013 10:10PM

    emoticon blog!!

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BLUSHIOUS 9/16/2013 8:26PM

    Interesting perspective.

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FRUITYFUL 9/16/2013 12:20PM

    AWESOME blog! It's so, so true. I've often thought about when I had the "freedom" to eat what I wanted, but it really wasn't, as you said. It might be easier than watching the calories and nutrients, etc., but it's not easier to be 300 lbs and unable to do so many other things.

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DISCOVERLLH 9/16/2013 11:43AM

    This was SO GOOD! I have really been struggling this week. I had such a strong food craving for pizza last night. I told myself I could order it and just have a small piece. I ended up eating 1/4 of it for supper and 1/4 of it for breakfast this morning. Today I need to get healthy groceries. I'm going to print your blog and bring it with me for when the cravings hit. Great reminder. Thanks! emoticon

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WOUBBIE 9/16/2013 9:33AM

    What Birgit said! Woohoo!

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KELLIEBEAN 9/16/2013 8:00AM

    I LOVE this thought process. I love how you have adopted a new FREEDOM. Fantastic blog!!!!


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CARLING33 9/16/2013 7:56AM

    Great Blog! I have those feelings a lot too, and I still buy the stuff my kids and husband love like pizza rolls, frozen pizza and sugary cereals. It has gotten a lot easier to refrain from wanting these things, but I think we will have that internal battle forever.

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JUST-ELIZ 9/16/2013 6:26AM

    Amen! emoticon emoticon

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GLC2009 9/16/2013 2:38AM

    emoticon emoticon

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HOUNDLOVER1 9/16/2013 1:32AM

    I love this blog. Freedom is so important for contentment and we often don't realize when we give it up.

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KALISWALKER 9/16/2013 1:12AM

    Yes you are free to choose the right foods now

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STEPH-KNEE 9/16/2013 12:41AM

    Loved this, you have learned so much on this journey and I thank you for sharing it with us. emoticon

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ROXYCARIN 9/16/2013 12:39AM

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RACHEL__SPARKS 9/16/2013 12:27AM

    I hear you!!!!

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