Monday, September 16, 2013
September has start with a bang! No, a bang ends. I haven't been able to stop for the past 10 days. I haven't been able to track my food (but stepped on the scale on Saturday to see that it was down 2 pounds), I haven't exercised... I'm just on the go go GO! When all I want to do is rest and relax and maybe read a book that I'd like to read. I'm not balanced... but hoping that in this next week I'll be able to catch up and the rest of the semester will be more sustainable - I definitely cannot go 12 more weeks like this!
I feel good, though. Near the end of my PhD (or earlier), I began to lose steam so it's really REFRESHING to feel energized by this project of teaching and learning. I am excited! My preparations (and expectations of myself) take a lot out of me though. But isn't this how anyone at a new job survives and thrives? First there is a learning curve, I've never taught this class before so I need to get organized. Second, I need to throw myself into it in hopes of ensuring that I get hired to teach again (I'm just on of the many many sessional instructors... too many of us have PhDs for the few tenure track positions that become open). Even if academia is not what I chose to continue in, I want to leave a good impression so that the reference will benefit me later. Truthfully too, so far I am enjoying myself.
At the same time, though, I am working two days a week in an office and taking house/ pet sitting jobs as they come up. My PhD debt is maybe $50K (I have friends with much more than that, I wanted to avoid debt but... didn't quite manage... but of the 8 years of my PhD, that is representative of just one year), I want to get rid of that as soon as possible! I just finished up a house sitting job today and instead of working on tomorrow's lecture, I cleaned the house. Cleaning isn't explicitly part of the house/pet sitting job but I couldn't imagine leaving the house at all dirty. You're gone for three weeks and have entrusted someone to look after your home and pets, you SHOULD come home to a sparkling floor! Next house/pet sitting job begins on Wednesday for 12 days. No rest!
Somehow I have managed to be alright with my food intake during this time, how else would I have managed to be 2 pounds less on Saturday? Unless it's my running around... Nonetheless, I will keep up meal planning and packing (I also hate to spend $10+ on lunch when I could have just brought it myself). Exercise-wise, I really miss yoga. Part of the reason I haven't gone is because my back has been acting up (old slipped disk injury, it seems to be getting a little better than it was a week ago) but I think my current stress level would really benefit. My plan is to go Monday morning (will finish tomorrow's lecture so I can go!), Wednesday late afternoon or evening, and Friday morning. Three times per week will be great. I'm also doing a lot of walking, the past three weeks with dogs and the next two weeks I'll be living in walking distance (but 15-20 minutes) of my yoga studio, the office, and the train to the University. I'll keep my heart beating as I inhale good air!
Writing this brief blog has helped me calm down a tad. I'm busy but it's alright, I can get through it and thrive. I'm stressed but I'm happy with where I am. All I really need to work on is getting a little more sleep per night and being more understanding and communicative with my boyfriend. Anyhow, I have two hours to complete my PowerPoint for my lecture and get to bed.
Sweet dreams Sparkfriends! May you get enough sleep and exercise and eat well this next week and, more importantly, may you exude happiness and peace to those around you!