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The emotional Journey

Sunday, September 15, 2013

I am so fully aware now of how important it is to make ME a priority. I hate it because it sounds so selfish but my story is proof of how detrimental it is not to. I first joined sp in 2007 after having already lost 60 lbs before I discovered sp. I ended up losing 50 more lbs in 6 months. I worked so hard. I got in the best shape of my life. I kept the weight off for a couple years and maintained my exercise routine pretty well too. Then major changes happened and my family changed (new partner and his kids added to my household). I tried to make them feel at home and made meal plans to accommodate their tastes and rearranged the house sacrificing my space to exercise and my time to workout so I wouldn't bother them. And in a new relationship trying to accommodate the "being together" time with someone who has no interest in working out or eating healthy, ended up being more sacrifice from doing what I needed to do to be healthy. Now after 3 years of this I have gained 35 lbs and I am so frustrated and angry and sad. (An edited post I made toady on a team page.)
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I just thought it would be interesting to see the emotional progress I will make as I get back on track again.
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    I know how it is been there but not anymore Mine is coming off again slowly Yours will go away again emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1493 days ago
  • BR0NW3N
    I know what you mean. I was able to get down to 180 lbs. several years ago, then a whole bunch of things changed and I found myself unemployed and with my life thrown in a blender. Even when I found work, it was miles away so I had to deal with a long commute on top of everything else. Gradually my weight crept up and now I'm at an all time high. I feel awful, and I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror.

    Now that I'm in a job that I like (and where they seem to like me), I feel secure enough to try shifting the focus back to me. At least a little bit.

    The fact that you lost so much weight, though, gives me hope. You did it before, so you can do it again. And maybe, so can I.

    1494 days ago
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