Cry or Die
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Just getting back to work after a scare last week. I had the beginning stage of a heart attack on Thursday and was at Methodist hospital at the time, taking my daughter to her sleep study appointment. So they took me down to the E.R and did some blood tests and ex rays. They gave me oxygen and baby aspirin. One of the blood tests they ran showed that an enzyme detected heart disease. Is that creatin? I don't know as I am not savvy to cardiac jargon.
The cardiologist ordered an angiograph which showed that although I have "great arteries" for a woman of 52 years I have some damage to my aorta based on stress. Wow. That suprised me. I was kept overnight for monitoring and they put me on some blood thinners and told me to follow a heart healthy low salt diet. I am a little daunted by that challenge just now because I have little idea how to cut the salt except to avoid the salty snacks and sodas I sometimes enjoy after work. As far as cutting the salt in my cooking I am mystified. How will I make it taste right I'm thinking.
During the hospital stay I shed several tears over work related issues. I had no idea I was carrying all that until I had heart symptoms. Then it felt like if I didn't cry I would go down with them. So I cried. I had seen a client pass away one day at my day job and had worries that I might one day find another client passed away soon as he has some serious self injurious behavior. I have to follow data privacy and Hipaa laws. I don't yet know how to vent without describing the stressor in detail. I hope I have been sufficiently vague here. Anyhow you get the picture there is big time stress in my life that I have to learn to deal with. Two releases that really help are walking and getting out in nature.
I had a chaplain visit in the hospital and he talked about ways to release the stress without giving away too much information. I started trying that the day after I got out. I called a friend and unloaded. I felt so much lighter.
Well, now the work of healing my heart is upon me. I will keep you posted on how that goes.