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Despair

Sunday, September 15, 2013



I've been applying for work.

I took a position last Wednesday as a courier; I'm driving around a hundred miles a day, lifting boxes into the car, carrying them up stairs to customers.

I hate it.

I'm sitting here crying as I write this because I can't stand the thought of doing it again tomorrow, and the tomorrow after that.

I'm usually so strong, and able to face difficulty with calmness, but can't face this.

photo by me.
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  • v DANDELIONWINE_O
    I hope things have gotten better for you by now.
    Your blog just tore out my heart strings.
    I hope things are better, and if not now, then soon.
    Don't give up Hope!
    1026 days ago
  • v STLOUISWOMAN
    Have you tried a temp agency?
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    1045 days ago
  • v BARCLE
    emoticon emoticon I hope a happy solution reaches you soon - wish there was something more practical I could offer emoticon
    1047 days ago
  • v STLSUE01
    @arnettelee I'm trying not to give up.

    I can't face doing this courier job -- physically, I'm barely able to lift the boxes they're having me pick up and deliver. I cannot afford to hurt myself because currently I have no health care coverage. The 100+miles a day is hard on the car too.

    I just want an office job again. I can do pretty much anything in an office. I just don't know what to do anymore besides "don't give up."
    1047 days ago
  • v ARNETTELEE
    Don't give up...
    1047 days ago
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