Sunday, September 15, 2013
So lately I have been drug down by a case of who cares. With an extra helping of "I don't have to do this any more". I quit logging my food daily *who does that ?* As if. Normal people don't have to do that (resentment). Predictably there has been a gradual gain of about one and one half pounds a month since this trend began in May. I excused it. After all I am lifting weights again. Must be muscle. My measurements are the same. I am not eating that much more, just enough to build some muscle. Normally I don't wake up from this phase until I begin to have to buy new clothes, and then it is Really hard to get started again from that point. Matter of fact, beginning of August I began to try to stop the slide. It was incredibly difficult to begin taking this weight off. FOUR pounds over is just not enough for my body to give me instant feedback when I adjust my food downward.
BUT! They are beginning to leave me now. Why? Started faithfully journaling every bite again first of September. With Huge Resentment! Why do I have to do this?
Then came the epiphany. The Tool. The Answer. Do I resent brushing my teeth I asked myself one morning? Do I resent taking a shower? Some individuals have to do certain things to live a happy and healthy life. Most do. So what is up with the resentment? I am happy to fill out my journal today. Boo Yah. And I shaved my legs too.