I can't believe the transformation since December 19th! I just keep shaking my head. I am so, so glad I took pictures because there are some days I get up and don't feel like anything has changed. I know that it has, I can look in the mirror and see differences, but still that little demon is still there. To be honest, I'm not sure that evil thing ever goes away, but I am glad that I have hard core proof that I am changing!
Emotions are a funny thing. Some days I feel thin and glamorous, other days not even close. I am tempted to turn to food still to meet those deep, perplexing needs, but more than not I stop myself now. No, friends, this time, I really, really don't want to have to re-lose this weight. I was literally suffocating on my fat! I even noticed with this last ten pounds in particular that I have lost and re-lost them FOUR TIMES in my life!!! Enough is enough.
I am so thankful to God for this site. A long while ago I lay in bed crying and carrying on about how heavy I was once again. I felt like the Lord wanted me to start searching the internet for answers, that's how I stumbled across sparkpeople. The first attempt with this site, I was not successful. Not because sparkpeople was doing anything wrong, but because I, Rachel, did not want to really change. Sure I lost a handful of pounds, but within six months I quickly gained that back and then some.
No, it wasn't until this past December that I really meant business. I prayed again after a long pause from this site, and sure enough, God brought it to my mind again...sparkpeople. What can I say, I guess the Almighty himself likes these guys, lol, or at the very least he knew it was going to be the key I needed to successfully lose this much weight. Be encouraged please. Wherever you are on this journey, you can do this, even if you fall a hundred plus times, if you are trying, you are falling FORWARD. Sometimes it's a timing issue, sometimes it's a choice, but it always is worth the fight. YOU are worth the fight!
Remember that, eh, oh and yea, I'll see you at the finish line!