Saturday, September 14, 2013
Before I get into the negative nitty gritty, I think it's important that I start this post on a positive note. I am in the 140s again! My weigh-in on Wednesday was 148.8!!!
In my previous post, I mentioned that this week would be rough. Well, that was an understatement. It started off well, but then the weather changed and my oboe reeds all died. I have a concert tonight where I have a couple really difficult solos, so I need an amazing reed and I had to start anew. On Thursday and yesterday, I spent every extra minute of my day working on reeds. I was so stressed out that I couldn't eat and I felt sick to my stomach. Then I would binge eat at the end of the day. I didn't make any time to get to the gym or do my 30 minutes of cleaning.
I have been beating myself up about not having successfully completed my daily challenges. And then I got to thinking about it - if I am already really stressed about things going on in my life, adding additional tasks or goals to try to meet isn't helpful. I don't want to dig myself into another deep depression, so I really need to make time for myself. On a normal day, I have some time to work out and clean and stick to my nutritional goals, but as the school year and orchestra concert seasons start to get into full swing, it becomes increasingly difficult to make sure that I accomplish everything I set out to every day.
If I work myself to death trying to successfully complete my own September goals, then I will get burnt out and quit altogether. This has been the reason I have quit SparkPeople in the past, and I don't want it to happen again. I think I just added too much to my plate and failed to give myself any time to really relax and unwind. It's more important to me that I continue my healthy habits than try to lose weight as fast as I possibly can.
So, I'm going to tweak my September goals in the same fashion as I tweaked my healthy nutrition goals. For example, instead of thinking "I won't drink soda" I thought "I need to drink more water" and after all the water consumption, I am no longer thirsty for soda. So, instead of thinking "I need to find time to do 10 minutes of exercise and 30 minutes of cleaning," my new goal is that if I have time to watch tv, I will clean during the commercial breaks. If I haven't gone to the gym, I can do weight-lifting or other strength training while the tv is on (and I'm waiting for cane to soak, if I'm making reeds). If I don't accomplish this every day, then oh well.
One thing that I am very proud of is that I have continued to track every thing I consume. Even though I don't always stay within my daily ranges, I force myself to be accountable. This is amazing progress for me, so I think I deserve a pat on the back for that!