Saturday, September 14, 2013
My husband and I took off for a 3 month road trip in our fifth wheel this summer. I decided to put my weight loss goals on hold on the trip. I practiced the "art of maintenance" and found out, well, umm, I need more practice. I gained a few pounds...four to be exact. It was good practice. I thought I would be able to maintain, and I did for most of the trip, but I kinda lost it when we started heading back toward home. Stress/emotional eating I think. DH is finishing his last few weeks of a pretty tough treatment for Hep C. He is drained and I pick up the slack. Each week, he seems to get a little weaker because the meds are so strong. They are working; he cleared the virus, but they are taking a toll on both of us.
As we head back toward home, I decided that new goals were in order.
1) I really cannot keep the splurge foods I love around the house. I need to buy them in small quantities and infrequently. I will keep healthy snacks around.
2) I have to figure out a way to stay in shape on the road. When we were based in one place for months at a time, I found a routine and was able to stick with it. When we were mostly traveling, I found excuses not to exercise. I need to get back to baby steps in this area and not try to do 5-7 miles of walking/jogging per day like I was before we left on the trip. It's so strange that I still resist something that makes me feel so good when I do it. If any of you have thoughts or theories on that, I'd love to hear them. For now, my plan is to go back to 5 minutes a day...anyone can do that. I usually do more once I get going, which is the whole point of such a small commitment.
3) I have to limit myself on splurge foods when dining out. When tempted to order fries or some other high calorie favorite, I need to keep the bigger picture in mind. This is not a diet. This is the way I live now. The string on my yo-yo is wearing thin...I cannot do this to myself anymore. I can live with a once a month dining out splurge...no more than that.
4) I will enlist the help of my supportive hubby to meet my goals. We worked out a way for him to politely remind me I am off track...a secret code! He asks me how spark people is going. If he says "You're gaining weight", I get angry. It sets off all kinds of ancient emotional triggers for me. So I told him that if he asks about sparking, I will get the message without the hurt feelings. Amazingly, this seemed to work. It still took me a few more weeks to get back on spark people, but I did do it.
5) Lastly, I will try to be not too hard on myself and not too easy on myself. Balance and moderation will help me stick with this for the rest of my life.