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Don't know how to deal with Cancer

Friday, September 13, 2013

Just a quick blog to let out some emotions. A lot has been going on that I need to catch you up on. My first 5K, a big SP meetup that was AWESOME, 1st day of school pics of my kids, and so much more! Right now though Iíve been consumed with dealing with grief again. That sneaky lil bugger creeps back up on you no matter how much you try to not let it.

My aunt has been very ill and is being cared for by hospice right now. Cancer has taken another victory while her family is left to pick up the pieces. Itís a very difficult time to say the least. My boyfriend has been so good about comforting me in the past and being there for me but this time itís different. You see, he lost his daughter at the age of 7 to cancer and so this is bringing up some grief and issues with him as well. He acts like he knows it all when it comes to cancer since he has been through a similar experience. Iíll tell him my aunt is still hanging on, (in a coma), and heíll be like, yea I know. ďHow do you already know that, I just told you,Ē I said. ďStephanie was in a coma and we all gathered around for a week. A WEEK we had to watch her die.Ē Sigh. Iím sorry, Iím not as knowledgeable as you when it comes to cancer.

Anyways, thatís my vent for the day. Just needed to get that off my chest. If you could all say a prayer for my auntís peaceful passage into Godís loving embrace, I would greatly appreciate it. Itís a very difficult time for all of us. Thank you!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
BOVEY63 9/18/2013 5:10PM

    Many prayers coming your way.
Cancer is such a horrible disease and has taken away too many amazing people from our lives. I pray a cure is found soon.

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CHANGINGSAM 9/16/2013 3:51PM

    I definitely agree with FRENCHIFAL.

I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I've been and will continue praying for you and your family through this difficult time. emoticon

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BASEBALLMOM410 9/16/2013 11:30AM

    Thinking of you Leslie!!! BIG (((HUGS)))

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LIBBYFITZ 9/15/2013 11:57AM

    emoticon You are doing fine, we all deal with sadness and death in our own unique way. This will be bringing up some very sad memories that he thought he had put aside. Just be there for each other and remember it is your own sadness. emoticon

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AUNTB63 9/14/2013 8:21AM

    Sending good thoughts and prayers for your Aunt, also for you and your family. I know how difficult this time is, but you will get through this. Glad you found this blog to important to be able to do this.....without any judgment etc. emoticon emoticon

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BYEFATNANNY 9/14/2013 2:05AM

    Leslie don't forget this is bringing bad memories for him and he's trying to be strong for you and comfort you. Let the hospice nurses try to guide you. I'm so sorry, those of us that have been through try to say we know and in some ways we do, but every experience is different. I'm so sorry, try to remember she's going to a less painful place. Hugs my dear friend.

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_LINDA 9/14/2013 12:11AM

    Oh my, to lose a daughter at age 7, just can't imagine :(( Your beloved Aunt -the blessing is she is in a coma and can't feel pain. No wonder you are both torn up about this :(( Wishing her a peaceful passage...
Sending soothing thoughts and comforting hugs.
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MRYTYLER 9/13/2013 7:32PM

    emoticon My heart goes out to you, and you and your loved ones are in my prayers.

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PCOH051610 9/13/2013 6:45PM


I've just said a prayer that your beloved Aunt will pass away peacefully. As for your boyfriend's comments, remember that you are both under a lot of stress right now. Maybe he is hurting to see you hurting and knowing that this whole experience with your Aunt is bringing forth some powerful memories isn't making it any easier.

I wish I could reach out through the screen to give you this hug in person! emoticon

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LINDA! 9/13/2013 6:06PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Also, how difficult for you boyfriend. I am sending a prayer for both of you and the families. emoticon

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FRENCHIFAL 9/13/2013 5:27PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Your boyfriend might be trying to explain that he understands...or he might not want to talk about it because of his past experiences. Either way, I would talk to him about how you feel. It's terrible that he lost his daughter, but you need support and understanding now.

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