Friday, September 13, 2013
Okay, there's no party... but I really do feel like crying. I stayed under my calorie goal for yesterday, so that was good. Then I ate in the middle of the night again. I woke up and weighed myself this morning and I am up 4 lbs since Monday. I know eating last night was not good, and weighing myself after doing it was not good, but 4 lbs?? Every day this week my weight has gone up. It's so frustrating.
When I got on the scale at the dr's office, I had gained 2 lbs since the last time a couple weeks ago. So that was pretty demoralizing. I said that to the CDE and she said taking more insulin will cause weight gain. I had read that in 492587294587 places, but hearing her say it made it feel really real. Now I feel like... who cares what I do, it isn't going to do any good. I'm not going to lose any weight. I know that's a bad attitude and certainly won't help anything, I'm just sad and frustrated.
My motivation is zilch right now, but I'm still going through the motions. Dh and I are going to the park for a picnic and a walk today. I'm not in the mood for doing anything but sitting here moping, but I will go anyway and hope that I enjoy it more when I get there.
Sorry this entry is so whiny. I'm just sad and feeling defeated. I'll shake this off and find a positive attitude soon.
Hope everyone is having a good Friday.