Friday, September 13, 2013
So a recurring theme I seem to hear on Spark that I was guilty of as well is thinking to yourself: "Every time I have lost weight in the past, I have gained it all back! What makes me think this time could be any different? Maybe I'll lose 10, 20 even 30 pounds, but I'm going to gain it back because I've always gained it back in the past, so what is the point?" Most of the time that isn't our first thought when we start a new weight loss program or journey. We all start off with that sparkle, that I can do this attitude. The first week is great, new changes, drinking your water, moving a little, losing 3-5 pounds the first week with just the simplest of changes. But as the days and weeks roll on, that awful voice starts sneaking up on you. Mine was a real stinker, she was famous for reminding me "You will ALWAYS be fat!" She would list all the times I had lost weight only to gain it back. I had lost 40 pounds 2 or 3 times in my life only to gain them back (plus more). That wasn't even including all the times I lost 10-30 pounds just to throw in the towel and go back to my old ways.
When I started March of 2012, there was a huge part of me that didn't truly believe I could do it. But then I would see these amazing people on Spark that had lost 100+ pounds and were keeping it off. In fact pretty much all of them had lost weight in the past only to gain it back... but this time was different for them. It didn't matter how many times they had "failed" at weight loss... they were succeeding now. That is when I realized you never know when this weight loss attempt could be your last one!
So when that voice starts creeping in, reminding you that you've ALWAYS gained it back, you need to shut that voice down and tell it that this time is different. You are stronger, wiser, and more prepared this time than you were in the past. You know this is a lifestyle, not a fad diet. You know that you need to watch your calories or food in take, that you need to do physical activity that is appropriate for you, and that this takes work. You now know the sneaky things that voice can say to you and you are ready to fight it tooth and nail to prove it wrong! So if you find yourself thinking this time won't be any different and that you will only gain it back, you be sure to shut that voice down!
I will tell you 18 months later and 80 pounds down that voice is still around, but it is so much quieter, I almost have to struggle to hear it. Because with each passing month that I don't give up, and each pound lost, that voice is starting to realize I am stronger than it thought I was!
This attempt could be your last, just don't give up and keep Sparking!