Today seems a little bit harder in my healing process! wahŕaaaa!
Thursday, September 12, 2013
So, I thought I would blog about it. I have gained 3# since Sunday's fall. That means i am 6# over goal. NOT ACCEPTABLE! Because I have to slow WAY down I can actually see how I gained the 50# in the first place! I can see where the old patterns came from. BUT NOW, I love to exercise. I don't even think of it AS exercise, walking Lucy pup, swimming, zumba, even flash mob! Hiking, Pilates is the closet to exercise I do. I can't get up from the floor so none of that, either. Today I did SP Nicole's sitting core video, 2 times, at least I can keep my core remembering to stay engaged! 6# is allot for me. I feel sluggish, & actually fat! I don,t weigh myself everyday, instead I use other forms to show me my body size. How my zumba clothes fit, bras, panties, etc. Since I can't put any of these things on, It is hard to judge. It has only been 4 days, but I can tell the difference, already. I also can't prepare food.... no knifes, can openers, jars, etc. So for the most part I am eating veggies, chicken dogs.... high salt things as I was needing to go to the store the day of the fall. D* did go shopping, but he doesn't know I eat 2 apples a day, lots of spinisach for Smoothies, etc. He also can't lift since back surgery, I'm the physical person in the house! He really tried, I love him for that!!!!
This blog is depressing me even more, I think I will go back & meditate & remember the great things in my world! Thank for reading & commenting..... I very rarely get down.... sorry about that!