Getting out of my own head
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Do you have narrative tapes that run in your head?
The ones that whisper "Why try to improve? You'll age anyway."
"Why sweat? Sit down in this chair - the comfy one, and read a book."
"Even if you lose the weight you want, you'll still have ugly hanging skin."
For me, they run on a continuous loop (and the voice sounds like my mother), even though I've taken lots of steps toward better health, and sometimes I have to say (often out loud),
"Hush! I've got this!"
I've lost 60 lbs., I eat much healthier than I used to, I Spark every day, I work out at least 4 days a week, I'm accountable for my food and my feelings and still the tapes run. I have people I can trust in my life and still the tapes run...I've learned to meditate and still the tapes run...What's a girl to do?
I choose to keep getting stronger and faster so I can out run the tapes!