Thursday, September 12, 2013
I am an amazing planner. Meals, workouts, to do lists, you name it I'm organized. It's the get up and do it part that I have a problem with. More times than I'm happy with it seems to happen. Even if I want to get up and go sometimes I still don't. So lazy of me. There were 2 classes at my gym that I love and wanted to get to yesterday and I didn't go. I'm a bit annoyed with myself right now. There was no excuse, no reason, I just didn't go. I want to get better and carrying through with my plans. I do get into good spurts, but they never last long enough and then I have a set back. Well I want to catch it this time before I ruin my progress down to 165. I do not want to go back up and have to start again. I want to maintain and build on what I've accomplished. I have styled my days so that I have entire afternoons free to do whatever I want, I have my classes and workouts planned out I need to do them like it's my job. It's not something I can just skip, it's as important as sleeping, eating and taking showers.
I do this in a vacuum, I have no friends or workout buddies to meet up with at the gym. I could finally decide to pay for a package of personal trainer sessions. Having a regular appointment with a professional I'm paying for might be a better option for this planner. It would hold me accountable in a way I am not right now, I would have to make my appointments, you can't just skip your workouts if you've hired a trainer. It' a true commitment, since my honor system sat on the couch yesterday and cleared episodes of Burn Notice out of my DVR as I mindlessly snacked on anything in the kitchen.
I know I've posted some recent amazing pictures of my progress and some think "Well she's doing everything right if she looks like that now". But I wanted everyone to know that even with the progress, I am still having major human (American) screw ups. I say American because when I visit my friends in Mexico people just simply do not eat the way we do. There is no take out all week or crazy unlimited access to anything and everything. In America I head to a diner after work and wind up ordering cheese fries and gravy, in Mexico I'd never even see that kind of food. I'd be eating shrimp, chicken and salsas on tortillas most of the week. Suddenly there's a huge shift in my diet from eating local and I always start losing weight when I'm there. It's just a different lifestyle and I wish I could spend more time there. But I can't, so I have to learn to bring some of these attitudes home here with me.
I want to learn to replicate some of the dishes I eat there on a regular basis. Learn how to make chicken tinga, and cerviche fresh here in the USA. There are no classes at the gym tonight, but that doesn't mean I can't work out. I have to run errands after work but then I should at least put in a 5K workout tonight. Even if it's raining, there's no reason I can't do it on a treadmill.
I know what I have to work on and I know I can be honest with myself about what I'm doing wrong and that's always a good first step. I have to make sure it's not a last step and use it for a place of beginning and reason to grow. It's the only way to move on with the next stage of my weight loss.