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A More Pleasant Blog

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Well I haven't been feeling totally awesome this week. But then, I suppose you can't feel totally awesome all the time! And things aren't too terrible.

I am going to the doctor this afternoon and I am TERRIFIED. It's just one of those things. I hate talking about my issues, no matter what they are. Making the appointment was a huge step for me!

I just added up how much it will cost me to get a car and I don't have enough money yet. Quite depressing as I have 4 widely spaced jobs and its exhausting me cycling between them.

Plus I live up a hill and getting shopping home is very hard work!

I'm trying to apply to do a college course, but for some reason I'm scared of doing that too. I feel like what if I begin it and find I'm wasting my time? It's better than doing nothing at all though. Which is mostly what I've done for the last 7 years! Thanks, depression.

Well, I have plenty to be grateful for. Better focus on that!

- Strength and Health! At least I'm strong enough to cycle around and carry all my stuff!
- My little sisters!
- My friend who I'm writing a book with!
- My horse!
- My beautiful attic!
- The sky and sun and moon and stars!
- ETC!

That's better...

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MADMANSMAMA87 9/12/2013 12:39PM

    I think taking a college course is a great idea & definitely a great start to bettering your life & your future! You seem very focused on overcoming the things that are holding back & I applaud you for that! It has to be hard to deal with depression everyday & I think you are showing it who is the boss by trying to be as positive as possible! Keep it up girl! You're doing great!

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IAMSHE-RA 9/12/2013 8:33AM

    Yes! A very positive blog! You're heading in the right direction, but you do have a lot on your plate. Don't overwhelm yourself and try to find a healthy balance.

I also applaud you for doing things that scare you. That's really living!! I'll tell you what I tell my 18 year old son. To quote Dido "while I am so afraid to fail that I won't even try, well how can I say I'm alive." Truer words were never written. Hang in there and keep living out loud!! emoticon

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