Thursday, September 12, 2013
Well I haven't been feeling totally awesome this week. But then, I suppose you can't feel totally awesome all the time! And things aren't too terrible.
I am going to the doctor this afternoon and I am TERRIFIED. It's just one of those things. I hate talking about my issues, no matter what they are. Making the appointment was a huge step for me!
I just added up how much it will cost me to get a car and I don't have enough money yet. Quite depressing as I have 4 widely spaced jobs and its exhausting me cycling between them.
Plus I live up a hill and getting shopping home is very hard work!
I'm trying to apply to do a college course, but for some reason I'm scared of doing that too. I feel like what if I begin it and find I'm wasting my time? It's better than doing nothing at all though. Which is mostly what I've done for the last 7 years! Thanks, depression.
Well, I have plenty to be grateful for. Better focus on that!
- Strength and Health! At least I'm strong enough to cycle around and carry all my stuff!
- My little sisters!
- My friend who I'm writing a book with!
- My horse!
- My beautiful attic!
- The sky and sun and moon and stars!