Tuesday, September 10, 2013
My parents arrive this week. It will be nice to see them but it's always a challenge. I'm trying to be positive about it. And especially try to be thankful for having parents who love me (in their unique way).
My grandmother passed this weekend and it's been hard not to be able to go back and spend time with family. She was in her late 90s and lived on her own up until about two months ago. I hope I can make it to 98 and live independently like her. There's lots I could say. I carry a lot of her and my grandfather (he passed several years ago at 97) in me. It seems a lot of my "do the right thing"/integrity comes from them. It's weird how that perhaps skipped a generation (my dad). I have a lot of wonderful memories of her and grandpa - I'm lucky to have those memories. I'd like to have more positive memories of my parents - not that they are all bad, but...
We've been busy doing last minute house projects which adds unnecessary pressure, but I can't seem to help myself. I'm also trying to cram in a week's worth of work. When I'm gone, nobody does my job so it has to be done before I go or when I get back. It makes time off feel worthless.
I have done a better job of letting some things go that I wanted to have complete and I'm very proud of that change.
I've cooked and filled the freezer with some good stuff for ease and flexibility. Tomorrow I'm planning itinerary (lots of driving at the request of my parents) and food around that itinerary (lots of picnics, but good for control of food intake). I'm working out how to squeeze in exercise to burn off stress and maybe get a good mood boost.
I want to get through this on a more positive note than I've ever--EVER managed. I don't want to start secretly wishing them away by day two. I have lots of plans and backup plans and I'm going to go easy on myself if it's not perfect. I can't create perfect, no matter how hard I try and when there are such different opinions about what perfect means and so many variables outside of my control. In a little over a week this will be in the past.
In other news, PT on the toe is working. WOW! It's so much better. The ankle is getting better and PT has me strengthening my ankles in about 8 different ways. I'm amazed at how tiring doing small movements on my foot and ankle. This experience is going to help me with running and hiking. I'm almost grateful for the ankle sprain - ha!
Miss everyone. So sorry for being SO out of touch. Good SP time just isn't right now. I'll be back one of these days and I look forward to catching up. Wishing you much success!