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Tuesday, September 10, 2013

My parents arrive this week. It will be nice to see them but it's always a challenge. I'm trying to be positive about it. And especially try to be thankful for having parents who love me (in their unique way).

My grandmother passed this weekend and it's been hard not to be able to go back and spend time with family. She was in her late 90s and lived on her own up until about two months ago. I hope I can make it to 98 and live independently like her. There's lots I could say. I carry a lot of her and my grandfather (he passed several years ago at 97) in me. It seems a lot of my "do the right thing"/integrity comes from them. It's weird how that perhaps skipped a generation (my dad). I have a lot of wonderful memories of her and grandpa - I'm lucky to have those memories. I'd like to have more positive memories of my parents - not that they are all bad, but...

We've been busy doing last minute house projects which adds unnecessary pressure, but I can't seem to help myself. I'm also trying to cram in a week's worth of work. When I'm gone, nobody does my job so it has to be done before I go or when I get back. It makes time off feel worthless.

I have done a better job of letting some things go that I wanted to have complete and I'm very proud of that change.

I've cooked and filled the freezer with some good stuff for ease and flexibility. Tomorrow I'm planning itinerary (lots of driving at the request of my parents) and food around that itinerary (lots of picnics, but good for control of food intake). I'm working out how to squeeze in exercise to burn off stress and maybe get a good mood boost.

I want to get through this on a more positive note than I've ever--EVER managed. I don't want to start secretly wishing them away by day two. I have lots of plans and backup plans and I'm going to go easy on myself if it's not perfect. I can't create perfect, no matter how hard I try and when there are such different opinions about what perfect means and so many variables outside of my control. In a little over a week this will be in the past.

In other news, PT on the toe is working. WOW! It's so much better. The ankle is getting better and PT has me strengthening my ankles in about 8 different ways. I'm amazed at how tiring doing small movements on my foot and ankle. This experience is going to help me with running and hiking. I'm almost grateful for the ankle sprain - ha!

Miss everyone. So sorry for being SO out of touch. Good SP time just isn't right now. I'll be back one of these days and I look forward to catching up. Wishing you much success!
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    I am so sorry for the loss of your grandmother. You clearly have healthy longevity in the family. Good for you! Better yet, you inherited such strong values and love from them as well.

    Glad to hear the PT is going well. I chuckle every time I read "toe PT." I get it, and it makes sense, but I still chuckle. Forgive me for laughing at your toe issues. If it gets too bad, I'll call a "toe" truck for you. Baaahahaaaaa!

    I'm interested in hearing what they have you doing to strengthen the ankle. I notice mine are feeling weak lately.

    My best to you!! Hugs!
    1646 days ago
  • _JODI404
    emoticon I'm really sorry to hear about your Grandmother. How wonderful that she lived independently for so long!

    Planning and back up planning -- you Go! I hope that your visit goes well. As well as possible! Perfect is not possible -- good to recognize and let go of that.

    I hope you enjoy your time off work. Even if work is waiting for you... just enjoy the freedom of not thinking about it for a full week!

    Great news that PT is helping!! I have always found PT to be wonderful!

    ENJOY Suz!!

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    1651 days ago
    I'm glad to hear from you!

    I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother passing. She sounds like she was a strong independent woman and a good person to model after. i hope your parents visit goes well.

    Good luck with PT. Flexible feet are difficult to achieve because of wearing shoes all the time but flexible feet prevent other stresses on the ankle and leg. So have fun in creating that healthy platform! (I call the feet a platform)
    1652 days ago
    It's good to hear from you!

    I know we talked on our last walk about how stressful this can be for you. Be kind to yourself - you ARE successful, but sometimes parents can bring out all the insecurities we thought we have conquered.

    Stay strong!

    1653 days ago
    I'm glad you're finding ways that work for you to enjoy the time with family. Boy, I know that can be hard. I'm seeing my sister this Friday - I haven't seen her in 2 years (and she lives 20 minutes from me). So I get it. I hope all your planning pays off!!

    Great news on the toe/ankle stuff!! You continually inspire me!

    emoticon so you can get through all that's coming up!
    1653 days ago
    You grandparents were obviously great role models. I'm sorry you have lost them. Their example will live on in you!

    Good luck with your parents. Remember to breathe. I hope it's better than you expected!

    I'm happy to hear PT is going so well! We're all here when you are ready.

    1653 days ago
  • KANOE10
    Good luck on that visit with your parents and staying positive. I am sorry about your grandmother. She had a wonderful independent life.

    That is good news about your toe being better. You sound busy but focused on staying healthy and happy.

    1653 days ago
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