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Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Life has its balance.
Often it feels off balance.
Perhaps the last 6 plus weeks feel off. Way off.
Perhaps I just need new sneakers.

Tomorrow my husband comes home.
He came for a visit yesterday to see if he can manage the ramp, the bed, etc. He got the ok to come home. I am so happy, as our 33rd anniversary is Friday. I feel happy. Very happy.

Yesterday, when I was bringing my hubby back to the rehab, I got a blowout on the highway. It was scary. My hubby could not get out of the car. Between the two of us with our phones we contacted the motor club to come fix it. They could not remove our doughnut spare tire, so we had to purchase a new used tire. Now, I have no spare, and I need to get 4 new tires. I knew that when I got the oil changed August 29 but have been too busy working on the ramp to take care of it.
I am grateful the tire did not explode all over the place and that we were safe. Very grateful.

Yesterday while his visit went on, my son and his wife had their parental rights terminated. We are supposed to see my grandson tomorrow when my husband comes home, but have no idea when we might see him again. I feel sad. Very sad.

Tonight I had the 2nd interview for the library job before a panel of the entire library board of trustees with three questions (given before hand for preparation), and fifteen minutes to answer. I just wrote my thank you and am putting it in the post. I am now one of the last two standing. I am excited, apprehensive, and not going to count on anything. But, I am hopeful.

I have been driving too much, sleeping too little, not having enough veggies or food even, or water. It has thrown my loss a curve ball. Perhaps once my hubby is back home things will be in balance. Much more in balance. My bed won't lean all the way on my side. It won't be empty anymore.

That fills my heart.

I am exhausted, but fully trusting and relying on my faith, and the one who blessed me with that faith.
Good night all.
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    DEBORAH I am so sorry about the termination of parental rights it is so too bad. I hope he is fostered in a very good home.

    Happy 33 years together and so great DH will be home to celebrate it together. You only need hugs and love to celebrate such an occasion so take it easy it has been a rough time for both of you.

    I had my other cataract surgery so hopefully I will be able to get some things done now. Pat in Maine. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1645 days ago
    Truly is a time of joy and sadness. Glad the hubby is coming home and Happy Anniversary a little early!
    1649 days ago
    emoticon Thank God you husband will be home with you and I pray you will get some SLEEP and REST when you can. That's VERY important. We don't want YOUR body to breakdown. God's Arms are wide open for you to crawl up in His lap and get revived! His Love will NEVER fail you.

    Hopefully you will get to see your grandchildren after this next time. After all you ARE their blood and it's only right and fair. May God open doors that NO man can shut. He's able to DO exceedingly, abundantly ABOVE all we can ask or THINK! God is on YOUR side. Keep trusting! He's a MIRACLE worker!
    Stay Encouraged!
    1649 days ago
    It's been a long fight for their rights, it is not right, but it seems there is not much you can do in these fights sometimes. The state just wants to adopt kids out, when the parents are young and struggling. It is just not right.
    1649 days ago
    I'm so very glad that you and hubby are safe and that he's coming home!!! I've been praying and praying for that and your stress level and the library job! Still praying and God bless!
    1649 days ago
  • _LINDA
    So very glad you did not get into an accident with that tire blow out so very scary!!
    That is wonderful your husband will finally be home and in time for your anniversary!.
    Keeping everything crossed you get the job you want -you have come so far!
    How could your son and his wife get their parental rights terminated just like that??? Seems so drastic :(( I hope they will let you see your grandchild...
    Take care of yourself -you need to be in good shape to be a good caregiver.
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    1649 days ago
  • FROSTY99
    emoticon that the blowout did not cause a major accident and that you were neither one hurt. Happy to hear that DH is going to finally come home. I know what a relief that is. Pray that things go well with his continued recovery. So sorry to hear about you grandson-that has to be very difficult. Saying prayers that you will be able to continue contact with him.
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