Life has its balance.
Often it feels off balance.
Perhaps the last 6 plus weeks feel off. Way off.
Perhaps I just need new sneakers.
Tomorrow my husband comes home.
He came for a visit yesterday to see if he can manage the ramp, the bed, etc. He got the ok to come home. I am so happy, as our 33rd anniversary is Friday. I feel happy. Very happy.
Yesterday, when I was bringing my hubby back to the rehab, I got a blowout on the highway. It was scary. My hubby could not get out of the car. Between the two of us with our phones we contacted the motor club to come fix it. They could not remove our doughnut spare tire, so we had to purchase a new used tire. Now, I have no spare, and I need to get 4 new tires. I knew that when I got the oil changed August 29 but have been too busy working on the ramp to take care of it.
I am grateful the tire did not explode all over the place and that we were safe. Very grateful.
Yesterday while his visit went on, my son and his wife had their parental rights terminated. We are supposed to see my grandson tomorrow when my husband comes home, but have no idea when we might see him again. I feel sad. Very sad.
Tonight I had the 2nd interview for the library job before a panel of the entire library board of trustees with three questions (given before hand for preparation), and fifteen minutes to answer. I just wrote my thank you and am putting it in the post. I am now one of the last two standing. I am excited, apprehensive, and not going to count on anything. But, I am hopeful.
I have been driving too much, sleeping too little, not having enough veggies or food even, or water. It has thrown my loss a curve ball. Perhaps once my hubby is back home things will be in balance. Much more in balance. My bed won't lean all the way on my side. It won't be empty anymore.
That fills my heart.
I am exhausted, but fully trusting and relying on my faith, and the one who blessed me with that faith.
Good night all.