Tuesday, September 10, 2013
.. I don't like it anymore.
Yesterday bf was coaching so I snuck in for a class. This was the first time I took an actual class, the other I went to the box it was just the coaches and their SO's doing a wod. Yesterday we actually warmed up together, did the strength portion, then did a 12-minute wod.
Can I just say I HATE the feeling of being new and sucking at something. I HATE HATE HATE it!!!! I felt like a total dweeb the whole time. Bf made every attempt to help me through the workout, but I wasn't the only participant in class. He couldn't be with me the whole time. I didn't know where the equipment was kept, I didn't know how to do a hang snatch, I didn't know which way to face to do pull ups. I felt so frustrated and discouraged. All the people had these huge plates on their barbells.. and here I was with a stupid training bar with no weight.
"Bend your knees more"
"Hit the bar with your hips"
"No, now you're doing cleans"
"Get under the weight before you stand up"
"Better, sort of, but you're still doing a clean"
"Slow it down, you're rushing through the movement"
"Okay.. let's move on."
I felt utterly defeated. My muscles didn't feel worked at all because the training bar weighed maybe 20lbs. Then we moved on to squats and I just wanted to run out the door. Everyone knew what they were doing, how much weight to put on, yada yada. Bf came over and helped me of course, but I was already in my whiney funk. The squats felt heavy at the time.. I think I got up to 80lbs, but I'm not sore at all today. Next was strict press, again, felt heavy but now I'm not sore.
Then we got to the actual wod- 5 box jumps, 10 pullups, 15 wall balls repeat for 12mins. It was hard when I was doing it, I started to sweat, but then it was over and I had only worked for 12 minutes! That's not to say that I didn't feel like dying for those 12 minutes-- I did, but it was such a short period of time! If I had actually done the strength portion I may have been wiped, but I felt like I still needed to get a workout in. They had something called an accessory posted on the wall, something to do after the workout if you have time. But I didn't know what any of the exercises or abbreviations meant so I didn't do them. In one word, the workout was a FAIL.
Right after our wod ended, bf had to start warming up the next class. Everyone was posting their scores for the wod.. and I was like "I didn't know I was supposed to keep count??" I walked around feeling disappointed. Why wasn't I cut out for this? Why does this seem so hard? It's supposed to be workout that anyone can do, why not me? Then I started talking to the other athletes in my class. One lady said she almost quit when she had to learn snatches and cleans. A guy said it was rough for him at first, but now he's addicted. Another woman said she hates to exercise, but looks forward to coming in a knocking out a wod every day. They had all been doing it for over a year. I felt a little better.
After I stuck around and did some stretching. I asked bf to help me climb the rope to get in some pole conditioning. I climbed to top once, then started inverting on the rope. I was finally having fun! I did a chopper, gemini, scorpio, inverted attitude, over and over again until my shoulders and forearms were screaming. It was amazing to do on the rope because your hands never slip and you can hold on forever. Luckily no one even batted an eye that I was doing pole dance moves in the middle of a crossfit gym. I'm alway conscious of the stigma that follows pole dancing, so I didn't want to get bf in trouble for letting a "stripper" into the box. (Side note: it's so funny that no matter how much clothes we have on, undoubtedly someone is going to call us strippers). However, Crossfit is very pro-gymnastics, so it's easy to see how the two would go hand in hand.
Conclusion.. I hated yesterday, but I'm not going to give up on Crossfit as long as it's free. I NEED this kind of training if I'm ever going to get the big tricks on the pole. I have to be able to do several dead hang pull ups to get to the stop of the pole in performance climb. I need to be able to do muscle ups if I'm going to get my Iron X. I need to be able to lift my body weight over my head if I'm ever going to do a reverse climb. So I'll just have to get over the uncomfortable-factor for the time being.
I hope my next blog will be about how sore I am from lifting enormous amounts of weight.
Alsooo.. a bit of happy news. I just ordered some pole dancing gloves to help with my grip. Hopefully that will solve my problem of trying to work on my chrome pole at home. It seems I can't stick anything on that pole, so I'm excited to be able to get some help with the grip. I can't start working on more stuff at home!!