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Day 44 GROWTH & TRANSFORMATION


Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Well, I'm not sure why this happens....does the scale NOT know MONDAY is my weigh in day?!?!? I'm NOT hyper focused on the scale and that is a huge blessing! It frees me from the "defeat" I'd feel if I did not see the loss on my weigh in day. That would typically lead to a "why does it matter, why am I trying" mentality. If I were, I'd surely have given up! Having said that, I do weigh daily. It keeps me focused and moving forward with good decisions. Tracking is a real blessing too. I NEVER thought I'd say THAT! But again, its keeps me focused, accountable to reality! What a concept huh!

When I look at my charts over the past 44 day, it's been a roller coaster! Up & down!

Today I weighed in at 193.8. My starting weight on 7-29-13 was 208.4. That puts me at 14.6 pounds gone. I"m 6 weeks in actually. That would equal to an average loss of 2.43 pounds per week. I like the way that works out! Really puts it in perspective. Sustained effort and perseverance are my new way of life. Its flowing nicely right now. Things are super crazy busy but I'm not stressing too much about it. Just doing what I know to be the next best thing to meet my goals, in ALL my responsibilities & blessings of life.


This is boring stuff, but I need to keep track of what is happening in my world and how its affecting my journey....
I'm meeting with the Functional medicine Dr. tonight. I'm excited to get her opinion on how to tackle the nagging health problems I have. I'm ready for help. I totally had anxiety about this just a month ago. I put off getting those blood test done for two weeks, even after waiting in the quest office for an hour one day, chickening out. Its the results, and the cost, that scare me. My health insurance is not bad, its just that it does not cover so many things, unless its sick care. Sick care if a good thing too, don't bring me broccoli if I get in a car accident or have a heart attack!
However, the coverage is not "health" care at all. I decided I did not care, that it was important for me to get healthy and address the root of the problems vs continuing to "get by" and "I'm not as sick as most people" thinking. If we have to pay for these test out of pocket, God will provide. I totally trust Him. His resources are limitless. If its His will, then He will provide and we'll be exceedingly better off.
So here I go, staying totally out of my comfort zone, totally out of my control, following a professionals advise vs my own. Humbling myself to this whole situation and others as I TRUST the Lord who created me. GROWTH & TRANSFORMATION TO FOLLOW!

What are YOU doing to get outside of your comfort zone today? emoticon


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STRONGCOURAGE 9/13/2013 8:12PM

    Just read your blog now, after I posted on your page...Praying now esp for peace as you take this step forward, and to rest that God will provide for you in the exact way that you need it. I've seen Him do it over and over in my life...and I'm sure you can reflect on many times He has in yours too. Its always hard when it is something new though...we wonder, Are you really THAT big of a God?! And, wonder of wonders (lol), He is :) A verse I read this week that is helping me about a prayer request is this one: Ps. 34:10 "The young lions do lack and suffer hunger; but they who seek the LORD shall NOT be in want of any good thing." God knows & sees you seeking Him. He knows the very *best* that you need. He will provide what is GOOD for you. He won't hold that back from *you*! Keep trusting. Holding you in prayer~ emoticon

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ANDREAG89 9/13/2013 10:20AM

    I saw your posting/comments on two other blogs this week so figured I'd better check out what's going on with you!
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I understand about "health care" not really being something that helps you prevent but rather caring for the symptoms. I, too, believe God will provide, so keep up the prayers and undoubtedly He will work it out for you.

Great work on the weight loss! Keep up that great attitude!

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DETERMINEDAPRIL 9/11/2013 2:23PM

    Great post! You're 100% right- God WILL provide and I'm sure the hype of the test is far worse than everything you've imagined is/could be wrong. Hang in there and trust The Lord! :) You are in my thoughts and prayers!

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GORIANA 9/10/2013 1:31PM

    Congratulations on all the work you have put in and letting yourself get a little uncomfortable. It sounds like you are doing what you know you need to do and it is working. Great way to keep alert to your needs.

I'm giong to follow your example for weighing in. I haven't weighed myself in more than a week and my husband bought some cookies and I need to see where I'm at so I can right this ship.

Thanks for your spirit. It helps others too. Your enthusiasm is contagious!

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