Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Welp my dad give me my moms promise ring for my birthday monday. He got it for her when she was 15. they got married when she was 16 and had me when she was 17. , they were married 31 yrs. She woulda turned 50 this yr
She passed away 2.5 yrs ago today so having this material item of hers means more to me than anything in this world that I own.
Including my home.
I know God doesn't like me being materialistic and holding value in material items but this was my moms and I'm holding value to it. I really think God can make an exception for this.
This was the very first time in my life Dad has willingly given me anything. The first time he was nice on purpose.
It really shows me that God is watching me and he cares.
He sees that I have a loving heart by allowing my dad in my life eventhou he hurt me in past and he rewarded me by giving me something of my moms that ive wanted for oh so long.
He sees my hurt. two days ago I was hurting so much I seriously thought about taking a bottle of pills and giving up becuase I felt so alone and beat down.
I'm not alone and I'm going to beat this.
One step at a time. One day at a time.
Because I know there are people who care even when in my mind it feels like no one does.
Thank you God for saving me. So many times.