Monday, September 09, 2013
I read someone’s blog post the other day. I could feel the frustration in her post and could relate to it so well. The truth is that I remember that feeling far too well. I remember feeling trapped in my own body and feeling like there was nothing I could do about it. It was a reality check in 2007 when I started WW. For the first time in so many years, I truly realized what I was doing to my body…the only one I had been given. At 4’10”, I was 200-ish pounds. After finally seeing what I was doing, with the bacon potato wedges, Jumbo Jacks with cheese and mayo, the Bacon Egg Crescents, Taco Supremes, Nachos Bell Grande, Burrito Supremes, etc. It was scary to me to finally put a number (calorie and points, at that time) to what I had been putting in my mouth/body. When I did, my body started to change. I began, slowly, to change what I was eating and my body began to change. You would think that I should be at my goal weight by now…I can honestly say I am not. I am a work in progress. I had lost down to the high 150’s and was feeling good, but I was working out and eating right. The pounds were coming off. Then life happened. I found a special someone, I changed jobs and was no longer close to my gym and didn’t have my workout buddy and the support system I had changed. All the changes took their toll on me, for the worst and I gained most of my weight back. I have not since been able to get back into the workout routine that I had going on at the time, but I’m doing my best to at least do SOMETHING several days per week. I am hoping that I will again have a great workout buddy again at some point soon. What I can say now is that I am again paying attention to what is going into my mouth and trying to move. Sometimes, as I started learning in 2007, it takes flipping that switch from negative to positive and not focusing on what you can’t do, but on what you can. When I first started out, I could barely do 5 minutes on the elliptical. Now, I’ve done as much as 35 minutes at one time. I love the way my body feels after I have worked out. I know as I keep moving my body, the pain in my joints will lessen because it won’t have nearly so much weight to carry around. I am just under 4 pounds down since re-committing to Weight Watchers. It may not seem like much, but it is a start. And with each pound I lose and each meal or snack that I make the choice to pick a healthier option…or even if I don’t and I eat something high calorie, I know what I have to do to get back on track. I don’t eat the high fat/calorie foods all the time. It is all about progress not perfection. Each day may not be perfect and there may be some slips and falls, but if I get up and continue on, it is a step in the right direction.