Monday, September 09, 2013
My binge-free streak continues on, in spite of having a day with a little bit of a battle keeping out of the kitchen yesterday. I stayed at the low end of my calorie allowance anyway. But the afternoon was one of a feeling of just not quite feeling content.
I don't imagine it was anything about being content with foods I ate for the day, but with feeling happy with myself. No obvious reason. Just a blah feeling. No motivation to do anything. Hubby even offered to take me canoeing which I've asked him to do with me soon. It never seems to fit in. We haven't gone in years. But I said no! How ridiculous! Here I am, sulking around, and he offers (though he was in the middle of working in the yard landscaping, and I knew he'd really rather keep doing that, but would make a sacrifice for me). Today I look back and see what a big mistake I made in saying no. It would've been a really special time, especially since we will be apart for two weeks starting Thursday. I am kicking myself today! But I have to make the best of the last three days, and not beat myself up for this. LIving in regret will only distract me from making the most of this time we have. I've concluded that on the weekend I was living in the future, not able to live in the moment, thinking only how I couldn't wait for getting on the plane and finally being with my parents. This morning I came to that realization and made up my mind to enjoy each day and each moment leading up to my trip.
I have planned to make him a batch of favorite cookies to put in the freezer for him, like I did last time. He really enjoyed that. He is so good at eating two a day and not eating the whole batch, like I used to do. He can take out a couple at a time and they'll stay fresh. I'm also going to make him a pan of stuffed shells. Something easy to reheat in the microwave for a few nights. He could even have our son over for a meal. Hubby will do fine fending for himself while I'm away. I just want him to know I was thinking about him and wanted to leave him something special. (I never cook, so I know he'll appreciate the effort. My shells are really good, and I'll miss out! Maybe I can make a pan of them for my parents, too!)
We both have Macs, so we can do FaceTime. That helps me not feel so lonely for him. I started packing on Saturday. I had to decide between just using carry on, or my huge monster of a suitcase. Seems my small one will be perfect. Last time I brought a pair of my larger pants, so I'd be comfortable if I gained weight! I am NOT doing that this time. I am planning on sticking with my plan!
Any ideas for things I could do to make my time special with hubby the next three evenings? Tonight is date night anyway. We are going to Cracker Barrel. Maybe a walk at the Mall? If we go straight home after eating, he will just want to go out in the yard. We could watch a movie. We don't have cable, but we do have AppleTV. That is the extent of fun things we do together. We are not very creative with our times together. He is a quiet kind of guy. Now if it were up to me, we'd go dancing! Haha! Now you can see why I wish I'd said yes to canoeing!
On a happy note, I did get busy bustling around the house cleaning. Got the island in the kitchen cleaned off. My end table in the kitchen straightened up. Lists made for the trip and for things to do before going. Tackled a few of those things, too. Felt better after doing those things. Lots planned for today. Here I go!