Monday, September 09, 2013
In July I had my 5 year spark anniversary. I wish I could say that the last 5 years have left me in the best shape of my life....honestly it is just the opposite I am now in the WORST shape of my life. In that 5 years I have had 4 children (6 kids total in the last 10yrs). I could make some excuses about how it was my pregnancies that made me fat....but that isn't it. I am fat because I ate too much and exercised too little. Simple math. I used my pregnancies as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted and be lazy. Since my sparkpage showed my constant start/stop and lack of motivation it depressed me to log in here. So......I just deleted 5 years of journal entries. Let me tell you it felt good to do it. I also changed my sparkpage backgrounds and colors and changed my pictures. Now logging in doesn't depress me :)
My youngest child is 7mths and I am just now getting back in the grove of working out and watching my calorie intake. I just splurged on new running shoes and a fitbit :) I am one week in and so far so good. Because my littlest is still nursing I am trying to take it slow and concentrate more on health then on the scale. With that in mind I am locking my scale in the outside shed so I can't obsess over it and get depressed again. My plan is to weigh in once a month on the 1st.
This spring my husband is receiving a promotion and part of the ceremony includes my standing in front of his whole squadron and pinning his new rank on his uniform. I want to be able to do so with confidence and pride....not worried about my muffin top showing.
I can do this. I lost quite a bit of weight after my 2nd child (50 lbs) I can do it again. This time however it is STAYING off!