Sunday, September 08, 2013
I have spent the past week obsessively watching reality TV weight loss shows. Guess what? I'm not a TV star. I dream of losing weight at a pace rapid enough to see progress, but I don't have a trainer. I don't have the luxury of taking a week off to go to boot camp, or free healthy food for a year. None of this is an excuse, but I'm just going to have to go more slowly, and keep waiting to get healthier. My instant gratification desires are not amused.
Now comes Monday. My biggest fear. I'm terrified of trying to get healthy around the workplace. I'm terrified of what unkind and hurtful comments will come next. It's only one person, but constant comments about being fat and unhealthy and belittling my attempts to become healthier really don't make it easy. I know I just have to ignore it, but it still gets under my skin. There are other people in my office who are quite supportive and I'm very grateful for them, but I feel like I'm trying to negotiate a minefield.
If I can get through the comments this week, I can keep on going, right?