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Sunday, September 08, 2013

I have myofascial pain syndrome and a sprained/strained cervical spine.

Basically one muscle started in a knot, so other muscles worked harder and knotted. Then the fascia, which is the connective tissue, glued my muscle to my skin. This started in my neck/shoulders and worked down my arms, back and legs.

Going on walks causes pain, especially inclines. Leaning and cleaning for long periods causes pain. I try to do as much as possible but it's hard when it leads me to being stuck on the couch with a heating pad and Advil.

I went next door last night because the neighbors were having a bonfire and it was teased that we, me & my fiancé, need to do my yard work and I have to get out there and just do it. Now, I understand no one wants to live next door to the unkept home but our house is kept nice outside. It's not overly decorated but that's due to finances. Plus, I physically end in pain trying to do much of anything. And now I feel so guilty.

How is it that being a woman means you have to be able to do everything & be good at it. I cook a meal for me and Mike, every night. I keep up on the dishes, laundry and dusting. I'm doing my best, and that little comment crushed me. If I had the money or ability to do more, trust me I would.

And on top of it, I'm struggling not only with my new job but my new life. I'm an hour and a half from my friends and family. I haven't made too many new friendships in my new town, and it's gotten me depressed.

I just keep telling myself I'm doing my best, and it's enough, even if it doesn't feel that way.
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  • ELSCO55
    Don't let them get you down. Do what you can without hurting yourself.
    1628 days ago
    I can certainly understand why that comment would be hurtful. Next time, I would tell them why you can't do it, maybe they will offer to help.

    I live with chronic pain, so I totally understand how hard it is just to keep up with the basic chores in life at times. I am very lucky that I have good friends who I consider family that do my yard work for me.

    1628 days ago
    Please don't let a casual comment devastate you. They were probably just teasing and if they knew the full story, they would probably be very embarrassed and sad they had made you feel bad. Most people are not mean. They just don't realize...
    You are doing the best you can. So, please, try to let that be enough. It really, really is!
    Hang in there!
    1628 days ago
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