Sunday, September 08, 2013
This is my first official blog on Spark People. I am not used to blogging and usually prefer to keep my thoughts to myself. I guess I am self-conscious and like reading blogs written by others more than writing and having others read about me. I must say however, that I do love to write, so without further ado here is my attempt at writing about stress.
Last year I had the best school year. My students were slightly challenging, but I found lots of ways to help them through each day of school. After years of struggling as a teacher, I realized that I was finally at a place and time in my life where I could lose weight and keep it off. I started looking for a weight loss plan that would work for me. I had managed to regain all of the weight I had lost in 1997 and felt that if I didn't lose the weight I had gained I would have a wheelchair in my future.
My overall health had truly suffered from years of on the job stress and a complicated relationship. First, there was the prednisone eye drops that I had to use for months on end due to eye inflammation. The use of this drug caused me to gain weight and have serious cravings for sugar. Next there was arthritis in my neck, back, knees, feet, and neck that flared up whenever I got "stressed out". Finally, there was my inability to set boundaries with people in both my work and my relationships. All of which led to an excessive amount of stress.
By the end of 2012 I was depressed and felt that my life was void of joy. So, I decided to get gastric bypass. I thought the preauthorization process would be easy. Yes, there would be hoops to jumps through, but never did I imagine that going through medical testing for the procedure would open a can of worms. One appointment led to another, and I went from what I thought was partially good health to very poor health as revealed through each successive test.
To make a long story short, in November, my doctor was told to run blood work and order a MRI to check for bone cancer. I can't begin to describe the intense fear I suffered through while I went through all of the medical tests. I don't remember ever having quite that must stress in my life at one time. After many prayers and rosaries, I am relieved to say that my bone health is very poor, but there is no cancer.
Once the doctor cleared me to workout and diet, I vowed to get healthy, and even if nothing in my life ever worked out the way I wanted it to I would still make the commitment to losing weight and getting in shape. I decided to see a nutritionist and we created a plan to meet my personal needs. During the past ten months, I've managed to lose 50 pounds. I still have a long way to go to get to my goal weight of 130, but I know I can do it.
Each day I manage to get in a few miles of walking and watch what I eat. I problem solve as problems come up. After reviewing my notes and reports from SP, I noticed that stress really is my biggest issue. I don't know if I can change my environment enough to lower my stress level a lot, but it is worth a try. So, yesterday I joined the stress challenge. I am hoping that writing daily and making a commitment to change will help lower my stress level. I am looking forward to seeing if I lose weight this school year. Happy Sunday everyone!