Sunday, September 08, 2013
Well, my boyfriend and I are more or less broken up after six months. Right now I feel lonely and empty, but I know it was the best thing to do.
In a nutshell, while I do love him, he has some growing-up to do. And, he needs to do it on his own. I can’t do it for him. And I think that if we had stayed together like we were it would have just always been the same, even if he was telling me he was working on it.
I do love him. He’s the only one who ever made me feel this way. He’s the only one who ever made feel like I could someday settle down and start a family.
But after our weekend trip together the past weekend, everything started adding up for me. We’d been together six months, and that’s the time I guess when it’s natural to start looking beyond just a casual dating relationship. And when I looked beyond, I realized it couldn’t work the way things were.
I guess I’ve kind of sunk a lot into him. He was my running partner. Now I’m thinking of running a half marathon next Sunday, and nobody will be at the finish line for me.
But it’ll only hurt for a little while. It was the right thing to do. Maybe he’ll change and never want to be back with me. But that’s a risk I’ll have to take…because if we keep our relationship the way it was, I know he’s not going to change.