Sunday, September 08, 2013
I really like goals. I think they are helpful.
I also have a tendency to become obsessed with what the future will look like once I reach those goals, and I think that such thoughts are not always so helpful.
There seems to be something powerfully good in having a goal and yet also being deeply grateful for where I am right now.
I have a goal to lose fifty pounds. The fact that I have had and currently have access to enough food to be overweight is truly a blessing. Many, many, many people around the world do not have sufficient food for today.
I have a goal to be more "out there" participating as a singer on stage. Singing makes me feel alive and valuable when I sing in private. I really get into shame about how I don't want to sing on stage until I get thin; I've sung many times on stage before, and so it's not that I have stage fright. Maybe I'm expecting too much from the singing experience (like hoping people will think, "what a goddess--beautiful and seemingly so very humble") instead of concentrating on how I have a gift to offer the world. Gotta work on the NOW part of the singing thing.
I have a goal to become stronger in cycling. The fact that I have a bicycle, gear, and working arms, legs, eyes, and ears today to do my workout (after which I always feel good, good, good) are things for which I am very grateful.
Keeping an eye on balance.