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I Don't Want To Forget

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Saturday, September 07, 2013



I've lost 71 lbs since March 1, 2012. I've gained strength, flexibility and endurance. I've celebrated so many awesome non-scale victories, such as being able to sit in the drivers seat without the steering wheel pressing against my belly. I've gone from wearing size 3X t-shirts (like the red one) to wearing size XL and L. (The green one is L.) My self esteem has increased.




So many things have changed since I lost that weight, and although I've still got around 70 more pounds to lose, I have to say that I love where I am right now. I'm not thin, but I FEEL thin. I feel healthy. And I'm so proud of how far I've come. I don't ever want to take my progress for granted.

I don't ever, EVER want to forget the way I felt when I weighed 286 lbs. I want to always remember how it felt to have to wear elastic waist jeans instead of regular jeans with a button and zipper. Even those elastic waist jeans were so tight on me that they'd leave marks on my stomach.

I don't want to forget how it felt to wake up in the morning, tired before I even got out of bed, aching all over, getting out of breath just walking to the bathroom. I don't want to forget having to buy clothes just because they were big enough, not because I actually liked them.

I don't want to forget how I avoided my husbands embraces, because I was embarrassed that when he hugged me, his arms didn't even go all the way around me.

I want to always remember how I struggled with exercise at the beginning of my journey. I want to remember how I couldn't even workout for 15 minutes without having to rest. I want to remember when I couldn't do a plank, or when certain yoga poses were too difficult for me to get into simply because my belly got in the way.

I don't want to ever forget where I began this journey. I don't want to forget the happiness I've felt with every NSV along the way. I want to remember where I started, and I want to always feel joy and gratitude when I realize how far I've come.

I still have a long way to go on my journey to my goal size. I will get there eventually. In the meantime, I want to enjoy the journey, and never take my progress for granted.



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GRAMPIAN 10/29/2013 7:14AM

  Y emoticon ou've done brilliantly!

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THIA09 10/1/2013 10:26AM

    Wow, thank you for sharing that! I'm not as far in my journey as you are but some of the things you have said have made me think of the things that have changed since I've started and you're right, I should celebrate that. Thank you for that reminder! Thank you for inspiring me!

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SCOTTYP65 9/30/2013 5:11PM

    Truly an amazing journey!

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EFFRAYECHILDE 9/23/2013 9:21AM

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WHITEANGEL4 9/19/2013 3:16PM

    You have come a long ways. I know how you feel. What a great victory when you have to purchases a smaller size in clothing. Keep up the good work

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FITGRANDMA120 9/14/2013 8:40PM

    Very Very Very Encouraging

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That's one of the things I, and probably most people, struggle with; remembering how far we've come instead of looking at how much we have left to do. Thanks for sharing.

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HHB4181 9/12/2013 9:45PM

    Great blog! Congrats on all of your progress!! emoticon

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QUILTER84 9/11/2013 4:28PM

  I'll add my congratulations....keep up the good work. I love the "illustration" of the shirts. One day I hope I can do the same. emoticon

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KARGUETA1 9/11/2013 1:29PM

    Your inspired me !!! thanks for sharing the spark!!! emoticon

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ILIKETOZUMBA 9/11/2013 10:29AM

    Awesome!!! I have similar memories of my own past, and I don't want to forget them either!

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BUSMOM27 9/10/2013 11:02AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I love reading your blogs! Congratulations on how far you have come.

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MISSLISA1973 9/9/2013 11:58PM

    This is an excellent blog. I put a lot of my lost weight back on in large part because I forgot. I forgot my motivations, I forgot how hard movement is with extra weight, and I forgot that I never wanted to go back. Keep reminding yourself of what you have done through blogs like this and other things, and I think it will go a long way to helping you keep it off for good. Way to go You!

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AJB121299 9/9/2013 10:46PM

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EJB2801 9/9/2013 10:10PM

    Wishing you well on the next leg of the journey!!

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You should be proud , you worked hard to get where you are. emoticon
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OKIE_NANA 9/9/2013 8:21PM

    Such an amazing look back. Congrats on celebrating nsvs. When you are muscular, the scale will lie about your health. Better to look at your clothes and how you feel. Being able to walk to the bathroom pain-free is an amazing experience. So is being able to walk and talk. Best of all you can make up for all those missed hugs.

To others who are reluctant to be hugged: there is a very old song 'Huggin' and a Chalkin'' He loves to hug his wife but he has to use chalk to mark his place as he circles her. In grade school. I thought it was cute. My mother also enjoyed it. Our daughter-in-law wore at least a 5X and our son still loved to be close to her. She is using surgery to lose weight and feeling better. Sorry Pixie, I've snatched your board for a minute. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WISHICOULDFLY 9/9/2013 7:05PM

    Thanks for helping to remind myself to keep my eyes on the prize. emoticon on thw 70 pounds!

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MSROZZIE 9/9/2013 6:49PM

    Love your blog, my sentiments exactly! emoticon for your blog being Voted Featured Blog Post - Awesome feat! emoticon emoticon

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ZMADAME 9/9/2013 5:15PM

    Thank you for sharing. emoticon

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MERANDARENEE 9/9/2013 4:53PM

    Very inspirational!!! Thank you for sharing this! I could feel the "spark" in this blog & it makes me wanna keep on keepin on! Thank you!


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ANDREAG89 9/9/2013 4:14PM

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. I love the t-shirts image - it really says so much about how far you've come. I plan on having a similar image to show when I'm down to my goal size. The shorts I'm wearing now will suffice as the "under garment" in the picture.

Thank you for reminding us not to take our struggles and current strength for granted!

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FANTASM01 9/9/2013 3:56PM

    Wow! You hit the nail right on the head about so many of the things you've mentioned. So many of the bad feelings I've had for several years now and I remember clearly when I was normal weight. When clothes fit me and I looked good in them. It took me 18 years and illness to get where I am today and I'm very hopeful it won't take me near that long to get it off. I know it will be a battle each and every day but I know I can do this. I'm a week in and already feel like there is less of me. My body isn't as painful so I know my rotten diet added to the pain I felt from fibromyalgia. That alone tells me I need to stick to healthy eating to lessen my pain and let me feel alive again. I can't wait till I can buy smaller clothing. Nine pounds off as of this morning so I"m feeling great and thanks for motivating me even more today! emoticon emoticon

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SUZIPAM1 9/9/2013 3:22PM

    that is so great

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RENATA144 9/9/2013 3:16PM

  You are my Heroine !!!
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BLESSTHISHOME 9/9/2013 12:09PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon very inspirational post. Thank you for sharing your journey! It blessed me and I know it will bless all who read your story

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ITCANBEDONE2013 9/9/2013 11:29AM

  Thanks for the inspiration!
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REBIRTHDIVA 9/9/2013 11:21AM

    love love love those nsv's!!! emoticon love your blog! WE won't forget emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SISSIE21 9/9/2013 11:00AM

    Well done Pixie, you should be so proud of yourself! emoticon emoticon

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VELVETDRAGONFLY 9/9/2013 10:22AM

    Your story is such an inspiration!!! It is something I need to remember. Focus on the journy and not just the goal.

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SHARONCAPPS 9/9/2013 9:31AM

  I struggle for every ounce I lose but I will not give up. I do not want to gain back what I have lost. Thank you for your story. It helps.

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JLKCANADA 9/9/2013 9:30AM

    Thanks for sharing and being a great inspiration! Good luck on your continued journey. emoticon

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UWPALUM 9/9/2013 8:32AM

    I find myself frustrated when I'm not losing but I am reminded that I can't take even the smallest forward steps for granted. I am proud of where I've come and just like you, I don't ever want to go back ward. Great thoughts!

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TORTISE110 9/9/2013 7:35AM

    You will not forget! More healthy success and joy ahead for you!

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    Keep up the great work!!!!! your doing emoticon !!!!

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