Friday, September 06, 2013
This summer was a difficult one. I know some of the reasons and I think I over estimate the difficulty. There were mothering worries and money worries and personal worries ect., ect., ect. You get the picture.
So I was thinking about video games. You know you can hit the button and the whole level starts over. Sometimes it looks better. But you also lose all the goodies you have earned. I am sad that I have not lost weight. I am sad that I am still working to figure out a good relationship with food. I don't like these struggles. But, I love being a mom. I love my husband and family. I have learned many things in the time that I have been working on my weight. I would hate to give up all of that.
So on Tuesday I went to a park with a notebook at sat down with myself and had a goal setting meeting. I got a plan for the days that I stay home. I am still pondering what I am going to do on the days that I have work. I then have was not home on Wednesday and Thursday. But, today I sort of remembered that I wanted to follow a plan. I need to get a few things together better. I will get this. Maybe I need to back off a bit...I will figure that out.
So I decided that I can go on from here. The past is gone. I have learned. I can continue to learn. I can continue to work on this journey. I have written down reasons that are motivational for me. I have written down the whys also.
I will be strong. I will end this school year closer to the goal that I am now. I will do this. I will be strong.
It does no good to look back and realize that it did not work unless I figure out how to fix the fact that it did not work.