Friday, September 06, 2013
For the past two years I have been struggling financially since I lost my full time job. I do get work here and there. Just enough to hold on but it has been a struggle. It has also been a blessing to have family members help me out from time to time.
The reason that I wrote mind over money was my shopping and eating habits. they have gone down quite a bit since I have started Spark. I could easily blame it on finances but the truth is I do not have the motivation to do the things that I need to do. I realize just how blessed I am that I still have shelter and food. That I am blessed to not go hungry. However, while this is the time I should plan the most, I plan the least. Having a plan when shopping not only saves you from bad purchases but saves you money. So why am I not planning as much. Why have I reverted back to fast foods? Why am I choosing the fries after giving them up for 2 years? It is clearly not about the money. The dollar spent on a sausage biscuit can easily be used to buy a container of oatmeal that will last a whole week. The cost of potatoes is cheaper than a few orders of fries. A bag of frozen fish beats a few burgers even if you order from the dollar menu.
I guess it is my motivation. I am sad and while I have not gone back to ice cream, cookies and chips in the middle of the night, I am eating my sadness and disguising it as breakfast or lunch. I can't seem to get myself out of this cycle at the moment. I say that I am going to do things differently but I am stuck in this moment. I know that my bad eating right now is NOT about the "eating healthy is expensive" excuse. I hate that excuse and if I were in a better mood I would challenge anyone with that excuse but I have to pull myself out of this funk before I can.
So, My spark friends, can you lend me a hand? What can I do to get out of this funk? My self pep talks aren't working.
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