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Thursday, September 05, 2013

Is that I keep trying- right?
I've been away from Spark for a while (Apparently, three years!) and I think I fell off the wagon rather hard. I think I'm back up to the weight that unnerves me- 260. I could blame a bunch of things, events, people- but I won't!

I won't even bug them for help, the people around me. Sure, they love me and would want to see me get healthy, but I think some things are better left done rather than said- I've often said things I want to do and have done less than I would have liked. I wonder what I could happen to me with my goals if I said less and did more.

My goals are my own. The people who can support me will. I'll fall, again, perhaps- but I don't want anyone else to feel at fault. This is something I want to do for myself. I want to get healthy, I want to trim up, I want to learn to swim in four years- I want these things for me.

I'm going to consider my goals and ways I can make them happen that would involve prompting myself to do more rather than wait on others to prompt me. I am going to go about things as mindfully as possible, examining my drives toward food and away from fitness, exploring my cravings and desires and see if there is any way I can manage these concerns more skillfully.

I hope that I can prompt myself toward a fair turn around and into a much more healthy life and body than I've allowed myself to have. I could use some support, sure, but I intend to appreciate the support I get rather than make it a necessity in my life and require it of people, here and at home.

Thank you for your time and attention.
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THEEXERCISER 9/6/2013 1:23AM

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SWIMMING_GLEE 9/5/2013 11:02PM

    Thank you, all, very much. However much I want to develop discipline, I have to admit I broke down and asked my partner to help see me through. The thing is the weight is a little more than I expected it to be and it seems a bit overwhelming.

I'm glad to have this kind of support, here. I hope I utilize it properly and achieve my fitness goals- and help others with theirs along the way.

Thank you, all, VERY much!

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GRACEOMALLEY 9/5/2013 5:24PM

    You can do it by being your own support and reminding yourself every day that your health is worth the effort. Good luck - and we're here to remind you if you need us!
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STEVEN_D 9/5/2013 4:07PM

    Good luck. I know an organic chemistry professor who is obsessed with laws of attraction, intermolecular forces and the interaction of everything in between.

You are not alone, obviously, in you're efforts to loose weight. I also tend to to gain weight when I am away from Sparkpeople. And relationships, but since I am coming out of one, the weight is also coming off. Funny how that works.

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KNYAGENYA 9/5/2013 3:00PM

    You can do it...I have faith in you.

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