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Thursday, September 05, 2013

Life in general is pretty good. I have a job that I absolutely love, and I have a student teacher this quarter which is great and makes my job even more interesting. I have a house that I love, I have family that I love and makes me smile and that I'm grateful for every day. I really don't have any excuse for why I'm struggling so much.

But I'm having trouble staying on track right now.

I'm giving into temptation left and right. Every morning I wake up with resolve, sometimes it lasts all day until dinner or after dinner, sometimes it's gone by the time I walk out the door in the morning. Temptation is around me all the time and I feel great when I can make the right choices, I just wish I could make the right choices more often. Like yesterday, I didn't have any chocolate during the meeting we had! Yay! But I did have a donut after school for a friend's birthday. So I know it could be worse, but I know it could be a hell of a lot better.

I think t hat it will help that tonight we get to put our furniture back into our living room after having our floors redone, so we'll have a kitchen table again. And everyone will be back in their own rooms. I'll be able to cook again. Comfortably. For a while I was doing the paleo type diet that my dietician recommended for me last year except allowing myself yogurt, fruit and granola for breakfast and coleslaw (which has sugar in the dressing) and breaded chicken for lunches, but I'm thinking I have to cut all of that out at least for a few weeks. Go back to eating hard boiled eggs and fruit for breakfast, meat and veggies for lunch and dinner and nothing sweet (other than the fruit). Go to eating pistachios and string cheese for a snack instead of an apple with PB. 2 weeks. I should do it for 2 weeks and see how it goes. I'll count down. If I do well those two weeks and I still want that other stuff, I'll allow it every now and then. It's hard to wrap my head around, but I know I need to do it.

My parents are coming into town tomorrow for the weekend (yay! My dad finally gets to meet Milo!) so that will be hard. I will do the best I can while they're here (TRULY the best I can) and then Sunday will be day 1 of my two week "cleanse."
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    Try not to think of this as a diet, but as a way of life. To make you healthy so you will be around a long time for your family. To make you feel better about yourself. If you think of it as a diet, then the word diet means restrictions. Like one of the other members had stated, everything in moderation. Dark Chocolate is actually good for you. I would read the label and only eat the recommended portion size, the higher the Cacao the better. I go with 70 and sometimes I dip it in almond butter. To me that's a treat. Also, instead of using white processed sugar, try using Agave Nectar or Coconut Sugar. These two are much better for you and don't spike your blood sugars. I am doing the Paleo as well, but I do add in a little bit of dairy due to Osteoporosis running in my family. I have to lose 60-lbs due to all of the medications I have been on and having some health issues with Chronic Lyme Disease, Fibromyalgia, Reynaud's Disease, a history of Kidney Stones and just recently having my Gall Bladder removed due to Gall Stones. I sometimes sit and wonder what next?? (Sigh) We just have to sit back and take one day at a time. We didn't gain this weight over night, and we won't lose it over night either. Good luck to you, you can do this, I know you can. I have done it 4-times before after having my children, so I know I can do it again. This time I am older and dealing with health issues, so it will take longer. It's not a race, and if it takes me a while to make this journey, that's fine, as long as I finish.

    Linda :)
    1649 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/9/2013 8:45:49 PM
    That is a good idea with the two week plan. It will work as a jump start. But remember, you aren't giving up those other foods for good... it might be better to plan them into your daily calories. If you plan them, then you won't feel guilty about having them, and they won't sabotage you. You will maintain the control instead of giving control to what you eat. Remember, everything in moderation!
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    1652 days ago
    I would agree with WEDDWT and MJREIMERS that it's worth talking to your doctor if this continues. Doing a 2 week trial would be a good way to start. It's hard having two children and working. Try not to be too hard on yourself - that, alone, is a struggle.
    1652 days ago
    It takes a while to get back in the groove. Keep focusing on the here-and-now and take baby steps.

    Moderation in all things is key. I allow myself a piece of chocolate every now and then. It keeps the huge cravings at bay. I've also started eating frozen yogurt or regular yogurt for the sweetness. It's a much better food than the donuts or bagels.

    I agree with WEDDWT. If this continues it could be post-partum depression. Maybe speak with your doctor about it? I had four kids in 5 years with the first three in just over 3 years. It's not easy, but in time, it falls into place.

    Hang in there and seek out some additional help, if needed. Friends, family and even coworkers are often more than happy to "hang out" with mom and kids or help take the kids to the park. Give yourself time to adjust and keep spark'n. emoticon
    1653 days ago
    If everyday is a struggle for you, have you thought of the possibility that you might be dealing with some post-partum depression? Bringing this topic up is not popular, we're sposed to be so incredibly happy all the time. It's stressful, and hormonal.
    You said you're giving into temptation left and right. Do you really want to lose weight right now? No one says you have to. Sometimes there's so much pressure to return to pre-pregnancy weight. This is one emoticon who will encourage you to relax and take your time.
    You'll get there.
    1654 days ago
    Sounds like everything is going well on the home front! You will find your groove with the eating again, you always do!
    1654 days ago
    Every day is indeed a struggle, but it will be worth it in the end. Good luck with the Paleo diet!

    1654 days ago
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    Praise God for giving us just one day at a time in which to live and make the most of it to His glory. God Bless YOU! Vic.
    1654 days ago
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