Thursday, September 05, 2013
I've heard over and over how you shouldn't beat yourself up for a bad choice that happens once. At some point, that stuck - but not in a good way. I'd make a bad choice and say, "Oh well. Bad choice. No problem." I forgave myself to morbid obesity. I made excuses to the point where I can barely move. I held myself up to no standard at all, and my life goals are almost impossible.
So today. Awful choices. I'm beating myself up miserably - and it's fantastic. I need to feel guilt for eating fast food again when I swore I'd not touch it for a week. I need to feel ashamed for missing a workout when I'm still trying to up exercise frequency.
Ugh. I did horrible today. I can't forgive myself when forgiveness is going to mean my life goals are impossible.