Wednesday, September 04, 2013
Well I finally did it! I did what I have been dreading for about 6 months. I know I have been back pedaling on my healthy lifestyle. My exercising became non-existent and my food choices were horrific. I had been keeping my weight between 0-5 pounds from my original weight loss two years ago. I still have a lot to lose, but I thought that if I maintained I was still ahead of the game. Well, about 6 months ago I fell off the wagon and have been down on myself. I have finally hit bottom I guess (my jeans are getting uncomfortable) and I refuse to buy new clothes. My only option is to get back on track.
I realized I felt my best when I was exercising on a consistent basis and eating healthier (or at least making better food choices). So it is back to doing what works. I can't go back and redo the last 6 months but I can start fresh.
I stepped on the scale this morning and yes I wanted to puke. I am 14 pounds heavier than my lowest. I started to beat myself up, but then I figured I was still down 36 pounds from 2 years ago and that is something. Today at 224 lbs I feel tired, slow, and fat. When I got down to 224 lbs a few years ago I felt healthy, energetic and fit. I am going to make exercise a priority in my life again. I am also going to make small changes in my diet to help me safely and slowly lose more weight. My goal is to be down to 175 lbs by next summer. I know that I can do it if I just keep my head in the game.