Wednesday, September 04, 2013
So for the last couple of months weight loss has been on a total hold and I'm back up to my highest weight (because of my lympedema in my legs the 20 or so pounds I lost in fluid is built back up). My emotions have been over the top. Back on July 15th I lost my job due to lay offs from my company. Now I love the place I worked for it was the best and the people where great but they had no choice they had to cut costs and because I worked from home I was one of the ones cut. I have no hard feelings with them. I was however devistated who wouldn't be I had been with them for 6 years and like I said I loved my job. There are not many places where I live to work at unless you want to do fast food at which time I am unable to do because I can't stay on my feet for long hours because of my Lymphedema. I have plenty of exeperince in that area though. About two weeks ago after interviewing with a bank I got offered a job doing life insurance sales ( commison based) I was excited and all but I was worried about money because it is 100% commison and I have never done that before. I would have been starting on the 9th of this month however I got the biggest surpise yesterday.
When I got laid off my company told me that they would call me just as soon as things picked up and if I was intrested at that time that they would hire me back in a heart beat. Well they called yesterday and they are losing one of the in office people and they called to offer me that position in the same department I was in before. I thought really long and hard about it because I have already invested some money in the insurance stuff, like paying for my fingerprints and my temp liscense ( I can't get this back) because I had to have this before I could start with them. I talked it over with my husband and a handfull of family members/friends that know me very well and they all think I should take my old job back and I am going to do that. I am looking forward to working with my old team again and glad I get to work for them again.
August was a rough month even more than just having to find a job my Great Uncle passed away as well and I miss him. He was really sick so I'm glad he didn't suffer more than he did. My Grandma is now down to just her and her half sister who wasn't raised with. My grandma was hit hard with his death because even though my Uncle was the oldest my Grandma was the one who took care of her brothers and sister from the time she was a young girl till the death of each of them. I dread the day my Grandma gives up and passes away it is going to hurt me so bad as she is more a mother to me then my own mom. Every time I talk to her (2-3x) a week she sounds so down and sick it has been hard for me to see her age. She started showing her age about the time she turned 75 and when her 2nd husband and her highschool sweetheart died a few years ago she aged even more. She lives own her own still , my mom lives with her but I think it is more of a hindrence than a help since my mom has a huge set of problems herself and she just stresses my grandma out. I pray to the lord every day that my grams doesn't have to be put in a nursing home she is to strong willed to survive in that type of sistuation but I'm afraid it will be happening soon as her health isn't great and she is starting to get where she doesn't remember even the simplest things.
I hope September is a good month for me and my family. With the job search out of the way I can start focusing on my weight again it has went way up due to leg swelling and such but I hope once I can get that back to where it should be the weight will start to come off agaian. I'm getting set up to restart DDP Yoga again to so I know that will help alot.
I hope everyone has a great month and I will update everyone again (hopefully alot sooner than this time).