Wednesday, September 04, 2013
One great thing about losing weight, was a lot of my health issues went away.
I used to get upper respiratory infections every other month, sinus infections every other week. I was just an overall sick person. But one thing has never left me.
Headaches. I've had headaches since I was in kindergarten. I remember having medicine in the nurse's office that I could take. It was Tylenol until 8th grade when I suddenly became allergic to Tylenol.
Then in high school, I got a bad case of vertigo and after an MRI and Catscan, they discovered I had a Chiari Brain Malformation. It's nothing really serious, and many people live their entire lives without ever knowing they have it. I was born with mine, and had I not had vertigo, we may have never discovered it. However, my headaches never really could be clearly connected with the malformation, so we never had surgery.
I mean, who really wants to have brain surgery anyways.
So, since I lost weight, I've also had less headaches. But with a tradeoff. The headaches I get now are debilitating. They are behind my left eye and just excruciating. I got one last May, and didn't get another one until a few weeks ago. When I went to the doctor, they prescribed me a type of Percocet without Tylenol after I went through the long list of headache medicines I have been prescribed before to no avail.
Now I'm all for pain relief, but I don't want to have to rely on Percocet to deal with these headaches, which after some research, I believe are "cluster" headaches. The last one lasted for 5 days but finally went away.
Well then last week, in my office, I was reading something on our bulletin board, when for a few brief seconds, I completely blacked out. I leaned onto the wall, scared of this experience, because I've never blacked out or passed out before. The blacking out has happened a few more times since then. Never for more than a few seconds and I've never fallen or anything, just grabbed on to whatever was close.
Well this morning, I woke up to another cluster headache.
And I just feel so broken and depressed. So many things have changed in a positive way due to my weight loss and I'm so glad for that. But these headaches are unbearable.
And my silly mind keeps saying " you didn't get them like this when you were fat."
It's probably not related, but I'm wondering if my calorie restriction is too much, or I have low blood sugar, or something. I truly don't know.
I just want to feel well and not have any health problems for once in my life.
You see, growing up, I had over 20 doctors. I had orthopedic surgeons, cardiologist, pulmonary specialists...and the list goes on. And most of those problems were probably due to my unhealthy lifestyle.
Which I guess is why I'm so frustrated. I feel like I'm doing so much good for myself, and yet these headaches are making it so hard for me to function.
I just want to feel well.
I called and got an appointment with a family doctor for Friday morning.
My last headache lasted 5 days so maybe I'll still feel terrible Friday too.
Ugh. I love you SparkFriends. Thanks for your support.