Tuesday, September 03, 2013
I really fell off the wagon in August. Things started to really pile on towards the end of July and then snowballed into August. Things at work were crazy in July with vacations, my daughters dance class, my sons pregames, and my Summer class = beginning of land slide.
The last week of July/first week of August I was in the last two weeks of my Summer class and I was really struggling to keep up with the course work. The last week of class (first full week in August) a very close Uncle of mine who had been in the hospital since April and finally got to go back home on 7/27went back into the hospital. I was not getting enough time to study for the in class final I had signed up for. Got to class and had a full fledge panic attack and could not take the test. Thankfully my instructor had given a second option for the exam, take home 10 essay question exam. He allowed me to switch to that, which gave me a few more days.
But the next day was when I went into Urgent Care in such pain and was told I had an infection in my ear drum bone and was put on some very strong antibiotics. The antibiotics really kicked my butt, which made it very difficult to function let alone write essays. Two days later my Uncles wife, went into the ER, was life flighted to Des Moines, and put into a comma. Then my son started having some issues at daycare. So here I was in pain, getting my but kicked by drugs, trying to finish my final, my Uncle in the hospital and my Aunt two hours away from him in a comma. I feel off the wagon.
Exercise went out the window, healthy eating went out the window, and I crashed and burned. In two weeks time I gained 9 lbs.
The weekend of 9/17 I made a very long trip to Des Moines to visit my Aunt who was still in a comma and kidneys still not working. I then drove another two hours to see my Uncle who is still not out of the woods. I spent a lot of time with these two as a child. This was very hard on me and I was really struggling. Well, I am glad I went, 11 days after my Aunt went in the ER, she went home to her Lord in Heaven.
So the last week of August was very crazy. Monday trying to get a much work done as possible. Tuesday back to Iowa for a beautiful celebration of life. Wednesday trying to play catch-up at work and get to Meet the Teacher night for my son going into Kindergarten. And Thursday I had and ENT appointment because my ear was still bothering me. At my Drs appointment I came to find out I never had an ear drum bone infection and never needed to be tortured by such strong antibiotics. Do to all the stress in July, I had given myself TMJ/TMD! That was just great :o(
So, I have totally fallen out of routine. Exercise has become an after thought, all I want to do it eat junk. And I am just blah.
Tomorrow it is time to get things back on track and stop letting my team down. I have not been a very good Dawg this time around. And I have not been very supportive of all my great SparkFriends.
Today my son started Kindergarten, my Fall semester starts Friday (I have homework due by then already), and my daughter starts Preschool next Tuesday. Things are crazy as usual but time to get some focus back on the healthy me.
So I take the pledge again:
Today, I promise I will not quit.
I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey.
I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself.
I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations.
I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am.
I pledge to stay in the race and to be a WINNER!